suboxen vs. methadone

[bdone]

I have been on opiates of some kind for the past 9years. The last two years i have been prescribed 40mgs oxycontin 2xs a day and 120percocet a month (4aday). Of course i always run out of my scripts after a week or two and then have to scramble to find more from people until i can fill my next script. Every month I tell myself that this time i am going to take my pills how they are prescribed and no more so that i wont run out, but every month i fail. I am sick of my life revolving around pills! The only time that i am happy is when i am high. I've tried to stop on my own but have never been successful, unless i was out and couldn't find any, but then that would be all i could think about. When i dont have any i dont even want to get out of bed in the morning, i am so depressed and so crabby, i have no motivation and absolutely no energy at all. Ive tried to hide the extent of my addiction from my family but now they are all on to me, and on my case to quit. I do want to quit too, but am really scared of the energy and mood problems. I know that i wont be able to do this cold turkey if i want to be successful. Also i really do have legitamate pain! I want to know if anyone has any advise on suboxen? Or since i have a lot of pain would methadone be a better choice? Its been so long since i was able to be happy sober-how long untill i will be able to enjoy life again? Ever?

[lmccoy]

I was on about 270 mg of oxy long and short acting for years. It was for pain, and when I got to broke for the oxy my Dr. switched me to methadone. It really helped with the pain and I was able to taper to a much lower dose than I had been on in years and years. I have quite a few posts on here about what my experience has been and can't stand the thought of typeing it all again. If you click on someones name I'm pretty sure you can go to their page and see all the posts they have submitted. This site is wonderfull and can help alot. Methadone has lots of drawbacks, but it has worked very well for me.

[addicted32]

Your story sounds like mine.  Im on Oxy 15mgs exteneded release twice a day.  Im also from WI.  Im tappering I went cold turkey and I didn't get out of bed for 4 days I was real depressed and wanted to die.  If I can't taper Im going to a suboxone program for a week and work with specialists.  Its hard but at least your admitting it.  Its horrible to be this way.  The last time in my life i was pill free was 18 years old thats when i was happy and enjoying life now my life revolves around a pill and its sad that I can't function with out one.  I just turned 32 in Feb.  So I understand what your going through.  I started on vicodin for endometrosis at 20 and it increased to what it is now.  

[worried878]

sounds as if u kinda go ct every month?
both drugs u mention as alternatives are stronger narcotics that what u r on
what is ur goal?  r u afraid of wds?  if so..what will u do when it is time to get off the done or the sub?  wds will be worse mostlikely than they would be now...is the goal to put off the inevitable or to stay on narcotics for life?  The battle u fight is within urself..and can not be won by another narcotic..it can only be won by u
If i were to choose a narc for life for pain..i would choose methadone as it is a better pain reliever...either sub or methadone, if tapered correcly and stringently can help with detox//sub is safer cos it is more difficult to overdose while on it...neither will make u clean..and both can get u into deeper doo doo than u r in right now
choices are hard...but life is short...and living it is a happy thing when narcotics are not dragging u down and clouding ur vision
it is a tough thing to let go of our coping mechanisms even if they r unhealthy....being a chronic painer i do know there comes a time when an addict is not using for the pain anymore//tough realization tho..tolerence builds and pain relief is a thing of the past
good luck to u and keep us posted on ur choices