Hey, your story sounds like mine, but I'm 33 not 25. If you want it bad enough people in this forum will back you up! You are so young and have a long healthy life ahead of you. You can do this. I was taking pills like an idiot too, I could down 60 5mg. hydros in 2 days. Take it one day at a time.......-Beth By the way, I'm clean for 2 weeks now!!
thanks for replyn yea i get em from the doc i have been for a while but only when i couldnt afford pills or whatevere the case was but nothn steady the dr seems pretty good he dont no i messd up again if he did he would kick me out cause he says thata it to many times and i got a pee test on fri and the last time i ate any was monday early morning so if i come up hot no more subs than im really screwed.i dont no how long i plan on stayn on subs for i no people say not 2 long but way i c it is if it helps me to stay off eatn 40ish a day by takn one sub than i guess its worth it.what do u thnk bout startn a relationship during this time i mean i kinda no what people r gona say but i didnt mean to like get serious it just kinda happaned and what if this is like the one and i pass it up ya no i dont really no oh and shes not an addict she dont do anythng not even drink. once agin thanks u were here for me last time when i was getn clean to refusing thanks alot and gizzy thnks. im headn to a meeting at 7
Hey jt -glad to see your back. Ok your not a F up. Your an addict which doesnt make you a f-up .. we have all been there.. I can only tell you that this is something that CAN be beat. But you have to own it and take responsibility for it. Its H-A-R-D work staying clean.. we know that, but you can do it. NA is a great idea, but its not going to work unless you work it. What about counseling? I know a lot about being a young drug addict cause I was one.. I am finally owning up to it now at 29 but my story is very similar to yours.. I think its really important to figure out WHY you use... through NA to help you stay clean and counseling to try and figure out why you want to use in the first place... I think that yes you need to be accountable to someone.. parents probably are best, but your heart needs to be in this... which I know is tough.. sometimes I think to myself"'will I NEVER use or take a pill ever again?".. But its hard to think like that. So I say, I am not using or taking pills TODAY and that helps... I do know that it gets easier with time.. I am sorry your struggling...you say you will do what it takes and that's a good thing.. so your on sub now? how long will you stay on? staying off everything else should be easy on sub as you wont get high if you take any other pills... and for me the naloxene in suboxone really helped with any cravings..Are you getting them from a doctor? What is your doctor's recommendation? I really know you can do this and wish you all the best of luck in the world.
Hey buddy, i understand what your saying, i really do. Although there is that desire to get clean and hitting bottom after bottom you realize that nothing will change until you get clean. I think going to a meeting is a giant step. Although i didnt' attend N/A that long, i remember walking in for the first time and when i walked out i felt this different high. It's normal what your thinking now, drugs have been a way of life for many of us and giving that up is terrifying, but what is even more scary is having to live like that. Your still a young man with your whole life ahead of you, NOW is the time to fix this. Get some help, go to meetings, post when craving and pissed off. Like you just said,
IM WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES... Recovery is about change, not just getting clean. Your life will do a full circle clean and i hope to read about all your success. Good luck man.