I am addicted to tramadol. I am weaning off now and am doing well so far. I was taking a ton of them, had several seizures, but the last one really opened my eyes because my heart stopped, and I was at the stable where I keep my horse and they don't want me to come back because of the liability. I have been on them for 5 years now, was up to 30 pills a day....sometimes maybe more. I think they should outlaw this drug. I started taking it after breaking my tailbone in a horse back riding incident. They gave me three months worth. I took them as prescribed for the first month, then started slowly increasing. Couldn't figure out why I was getting sick and feeling so awful when I ran out...but I knew I had to get more. I figured it out. I have lost great jobs due to my addiction...I've lost friends and my home. I am lucky to have a great family and an awesome friend that I live with. He is my ex boyfriend, we have lived together for 4 years. The reason we broke up was because of my addiction. I didn't realize that then. But I finally came clean to him, about everything last week. I had never told him. He said he knew somethings and had been counting my pills the last few months. He was afraid to talk to me about it because he was afraid I would get mad and leave. I think we may be able to work out relationship out when I get better. ANYWAY! The addiction has made me do things that I am soooo not proud of. First of all, I am a 35 year old(woman) professional accountant, so it probably seemed weird to the pawn shop that I would come in dressed in a business suit selling my Raymond Weil watch for 140 dollars. It was worth about 1000 and could have sold it for that on eBay, but I couldn't wait. I had to have the money to go to Fedex and pick up my prescription! I stole from friends and family...if not money, then things to pawn. I forged scripts at a pharmacy where I knew the pharmacist because he lived next door. WHen I was caught he didn't do anything. (The doctor gave me a blank prescription page because he wrote his Wife's cell on the back for me - she was a designer and I told him I was remodeling) Another lie....I was painting, but that was it. I didn't have any money to remodel!! Lets see, I always filled my legit scripts with refills way to soon, and was questioned. I know they knew, I could see it in their eyes. Had to change Doc's alot before the internet thing, but even then had to keep a good prescriber incase I ran out...which happened alot over weekends. I did alot of things that I am not proud of. I am broke, have no job, they cancelled my drivers license and I live with my ex. Ya know what though....I still have alot! I am so lucky to have a loving family and I have three really close caring friends, and Jeremy, my ex. He is so supportive. He is going to take me to the Doc on Thursday to see about getting on suboxone. I want him to come in with me, I want to be completely honest with him going forward. I am so happy that I found this site! You are all so honest and reassuring! I love reading about people getting clean and being happy! I feel so sad for those who aren't yet...like me. I wish I could help them thru it! I just know one thing for sure, NEVER start taking tramadol without caution! I never had a seizure in my life until I took this stuff. They are the bad ones...Grand Mals, I broke my jaw from falling because of one of them! I have had at least 12 in the last 4 years. BECAREFUL please!! I read a post about someone wanting to take ultram/tramadol to ween off vics....that is so not good, tramadol is harder to get off of, the withdrawals are worse, I have done alot of research on this. I just would hate to see someone get into what I have.
ANYWAY, sorry this is so long! My question was....have any of you done some of the terrible things I have done because of your addiction?? I feel like such an @$$ for what I have done...and would never have done that if it weren't for the pills!
Thanks and Good Luck to Everyone on here!!