2 weeks today, feeling down

[skotandmj]

I am 2 weeks clean today and 9 days out of my mdeical detox...feeling a little blue today...I have been able to eat a little more so that is good...I just dont feel very happy today.  I wish I could sleep the day away...but of course, sleep still only comes ocassionally (about 2am - 6am). I was reading about PAWS last night...Is that a less experienced thing if you were only an addict for a year??  I have not had any cravings since last Sunday and I thought that meant they were over...but not according to PAWS, huh? This makes me nervous.  I so badly need to feel happy.
mj

[sadinmichigan]

thankyou sara  ,that is a very important part..i'm glad you were thinking..lol...

[dominosarah]

The mental part comes after the w/d's and that is tough.  Bad days can lead to relapse.  I wish it was that easy to say we are clean and that is it but it doesnt happen like that for all of us.  Staying clean is the battle now.  Yes it is okay to have those feelings but we are addicts and our brain tells us to handle things in a different way.  You may be one of the lucky ones who just breezes thru this and good for you but for alot here it isnt that easy.  I was almost 2 months into this and i had a bad day and i wanted to go and drink.......thank god i didnt.  I went to the carwash instead and made a phone call and then i posted.  I am an addict and my brain still tells me to handle my stress by using as that is what i was used to doing.               sara

[sadinmichigan]

Congrats to you!!! 14 days is great..I agree with Worried..about PAWS..Hopefully you will not experience this..and the symptoms won't appear for awhile if you do..I have had some bouts with that..
I am sorry you are having such trouble sleeping..That is the worst!! It also compounds anything else going on because your so dang tired..hang in there..try a relaxing bath and soak..try to clear your mind for just a few minutes..
As far as cravings go..I think we will all have those once in awhile..some have them more severe..but at any rate..they will lessen over time.
Please check out the thomas recipe in the health pages..also in my journal I have something similar to that as well..(it's not just for methadone users)..
I hope your spirits pick up..This feeling blue...will pass
Congrats again..

[EmilyPost]

It's ok to feel blue. It's ok to be sad. It's ok to be nervous. It won't lead you back to the pills right? "Normal" people feel sad, they have bad days. It's ok to feel whatever you feel.

The sleep will return. My experience with withdrawal is that it is random. So, that's unnerving. My attitude has been one of; OK, it's going to hurt, it's going to suck, who cares? It's better than being on a drug that was going to kill me. My physical pain has lessened. Last night I slept almost the entire night. It was the first time in years.

I would encourage you to clean up your diet, take supplements, and not worry about if you will have PAWS or not. No one can say for sure. You really are doing great. It may not feel like it right now. But feelings are transient. They are like waves. They come over you, engulf you and then flow away and a different emotion can come. Just give yourself credit for getting clean and staying clean.

Love and Healing;
Emily

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 14 days.  That is great.  As worried said.......get busy today.  It will help you feel better.  Enjoy your "busy" day!!!!          stay strong and keep going forward.   sara

[worried878]

I have talked with some who do not experience paws and at only using for a year..perhaps u will not....just live day by day and worry about that when and if the time comes...Holidays make people blue sometimes...they do me every now and then...i am going to get busy as i just got off of work and hit the beach with some friends...stay busy today if u can...and dont worry about the future right now...u are doing great!