to hell and on my way back

[BeyondScrewed]

Ill keep this short because I'm sure many of u doubt anything I say, with good reason. Most of you probably think I'm dead. And frankly, after these last 2 months I should be. How I am still alive, employed, and somehow landed a wonderful and smokin hot new girl is beyond me. I have a dr appt in 2 wdeks to beg for help. I went from simply abusing oxy, to speedballing 2-4 bags of rock mixed with the oxy and a gram of H. God must really want me around for a bit longer and I cam no longer ignore this fact. You will be hearing from me again soon. Only good things from now on.

[Nursey7]

I am glad you are back on here posting. We all want the best for you!! It sounds like you need help before that appointment though. Keep us updated!

[ricart70]

Man could you try to drop the rock in the meantime at least.You don't need that.
         Keep that doctor appointment.  don't let it be a constant mirage appearing in the distance and then mysteriously disappearing as you near it.
Sounds like you got lots to live for and  god seems to change his mind alot and decide things rather senselessly so get help in human form soon.
keep checking in buddy

[clean_in_ks]

Glad to hear you are alive.....and yes....just the other day, buddycrunch and I were wondering about you.  He had a 46 yr old friend found dead in his truck this past week.....so we never know do we?
Be sure to let us know how it goes with the doctor and what you decide.

A lot of people are pulling for you.....concerned for you...and praying for you....more than you could ever imagine~

[Pat1956100]

Wow, I have been thinking about you and thanks so much for letting us know you are okay.  Please keep posting and I am glad you are going to the doctor.  It's a start.  Does your new girlfriend use at all?  

[ImDONENoMore]

I will say it again.  I'm glad you came back.  Let us know what we can do to help.  I think it's obvious that you already know what kind of trouble your addiction has brought to your life.  None of us are exempt from that.  We all made a ton of mistakes and the only thing that matters right now is that you are trying again.  And not one of us is in a position to judge.

I really am glad you're trying again.  And we'll be here :)

[BeyondScrewed]

I know. Most of the time it was like I was on dope autopilot. I mean......ive never even HEARD of someone hitting it like I was. And working 50 hours a week......I wish I wasn't as good at hiding it. I'm done though. There was a day when I thought "if I just keep going, ill die fir sure and this will all be over finally"

:'-( I don't wanna die. And I'm not going too. F this stuff. F it to hell