232 days!

[SunnysideUP27]

Well, I am almost at 8 months and life is really turing into something enjoyable. Being sober and clean, having  a new journey in life is very exciting. Waking up not even thinking about pills and just getting out of bed wiht a new routine is amaxzing.   232 days and figuring out my life and learning something new everyday. I read this site and all of your posts all the time and am proud of all of you who are fighting for your lives. Life is a beautiful thing when the fog clears. Still deal with some lethargy from time to time and boredom still takes a grip, but I get up and do something and that all goes away. Time is so important in our journeys. If someone would have told me when I was high that 8 months in to my recovery I would still be working on myself I would have laughed. I always thought a week would do it. Well I was wrong but blessed that this road has opened this new path for me.  So to all of you out there struggling or just looking for a little inspiration, I thought I could never do it and guess what, I am doing it. Please be strong and think positive.Positive thoughts help me through alot. So God Bless you all! SUnny

[SunnysideUP27]

Thank you all!! And weaver, yes I thought things would be different as well.  I wasn't sure what I was chasing but until I gave up and just said let life take me where it wants ,  when it wants , was I able to really start connecting and things started to make much more sense.  Around 6 months my anxiety spiked.   I had it for a month straight and I questioned how could it be happening I'm six months clean.  Little did I know it take longer than a half year to feel , we'll better.  .   It's all part of recovery.  It drove me nuts.  Now when I have an "off" day, I just tell myself it's a mini step in my recovery and whatta ya know, things get better.  Always and like clock work. We want things now , we are human , but we must play the cards we are dealt and play the hand the best we can.  Stay strong everyone.  

[Andie015]

That's so beautiful and inspiring!!! Thank you for your post and congratulations on your clean time!! Life really is amazing when you are able to live it clean and sober.

[weaver71]

Way to go sunny. I thought things would be a lot different than they are also. At first it drove me crazy, not getting what I wanted when I wanted it, but it means so much to realize how hard I worked for every happy moment today.

[nbhope]

Thanks for the post, cant wait to be 8 months out :)) congrats too!!

[Teresa1717]

Great post and Congrats on your clean time!!! Keep moving forward!!

[SunnysideUP27]

Thanks Sarah!! Yes I am enjoying life and it is awesome that it can get even better than this.
Bryan, congrats to you on your clean time!!! Yes no more obsessing is a wonderful thing. At this point I start to forget what it was like thinking about pills everyday, not letting my guard down, but I am starting to just let it go a bit. I still work on myself everyday, some days are still very tough. But I know that the bad moments dont last. I know, I have evidence becuase im going thru it, that the good times follow the bad... And the good days are staying for much longer. The cake tastes so sweet at this point!

[Fireby29]

Great post and congrats!

I am a bit behind you, but I too see myself as a long term project at this point.  It is going to take work daily.  Seems worth it more then ever before, and that is exciting.

And I SO agree how nice it is not not obsess about pills, count pills, etc.  now if I could just lose all cravings, that would be the icing.

But for now, I'll enjoy the cake.

Bryan

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your clean time!!  You sound great!  Life will continue to get better and better~