I am so scared.. and sad.. so sad. Sometimes i think that its pointless to even try. I feel like i'm just going to die.. I'm so worried and disappointed in myself. it is unbarable.. i dont even know what to do. i told my parents i don't want them to help me. they make me feel embarrased about it.. because i made these choices and i'm the only one that can change myself.. i just feel like i cam absloutley out of contol. I can't stand that feeling. and soooooo much for ballet i quit. i just want someone that will listen to me and understand me.. i dont understand me at all.. i feel so stupid. I really don't ike myself. i do when i'm high.. and i got so messed up yesterday.. and most of today that right now i feel disgusting... I think i'm hungover.. or i ate too much pot. i have to throw up but i cant i cant i'm soooooooo angryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy so angry with myself
Hi Rasta. I have never been to rehab, but some here have and will give you advice. I did take a tour through out the rehab center and went to some N/A meetings there and I was surprised how comfortable they made me feel there.
I know I am blunt on your posts sometimes, but you really do need help and it's getting worse as you have said. What makes quitting so hard is surrendering, that is accepting your completely powerless and seek some type of treatment. Our addictions will fight us with all it has so we dont' get help, it wants to keep you sick and getting help WILL make you better. I have said this to you on almost all your posts, talk to your parents. If they don't understand addiction, then ask them to come on here so ya'll can come up with a plan on what is best for you to get better. You need to do this girl, it's life or death. Surrendering will give you life, now go get it. We are rooting for you!
I didnot go to rehab on my own I kinda just woke up there, mine was short term, I was scared to death but became very comfortable really quick. But there is people that have been in long term 60-90 days that can tell you more. I didnot mind it at all I knew it could be life changing. Good Luck Too You