20 days off norco, yea...but the depression...

[jifmoc]

I did cold turk, actually I am amazed that I FINALLY did it.  The physical w/d's are 99% gone.  I was on 6 to 10 norcos a day, well it ended up that many after several years.  Anyway, now, all I am is overcome w/ a very familiar depression.  (Always had depression on and off).  Yes, I'm on depression meds, just started taking them regularly again.  If this depression continues much longer, I don't know if I'm gonna make it.  I can't believe I'm saying this, but right now, this second, I wish I was still on norcos! Isn't that crazy?  Nothing looks fun, interesting.  I'm not working, I have no money.  I have SO much to do to get a "life" back, it's too big.  If someone can tell me that the depression is part of the mental withdrawls, and that it WILL start to lift, I would be soooo grateful.  I'm feeling really hopeless right now.  

Thank you, I need all the encouragement I can get.

[broknbck]

i was taking a low dose of cymbalta . started a month before i quit. and than stopped like a couple months after. i did not experience any depression. sometimes we are depressed because of an imbalance in our brains. the amino acids can help greatly with that as they help to repair all the damage that has been done to our brains.
sometimes we are depressed because our circumstances are just too overwhelming and not what we are wanting. hah, it does not sound like everything is all too great with you right now. no job and no money and it is looking a bit overwhelming on how to get out of this mess????
day 4 of my quitting was probably one of the best days of my life. i had no cravings any longer and the physical dependancy was completely gone. i realized i had actually done it this time and i would never take another pill ever. i simply just didn't want to. i was finally released and i even started to cry... real hard. could not believe it was actually over. all the years and all the **** that went along with it. remembering how hopeless it had been....and yet i had my life back. and it is mine.
and so have you!
embrace this. it is a great thing that not everyone yet has. you should feel empowered,
a conqueror, king of the mountain (ha) and very lucky or blessed. it is best to try and focus on the good things that you do have now. and than to keep imagining how you want things to be for you and how great it is going to be. and keep wanting that to happen. if you keep your thoughts on your current situation , it will stay there.
aim high. whatever it is that you want. you are deserving as everyone is.
congratulations on getting off the drugs!!  

[worried878]

knopw where u r coming from..i was on 80-100 mgs a day when i quit..the physical part was a breeze for me..runs, headache, felt a bit yucky but back to work day 5..then the depression hit...loss of motivation..i was melting into the couch...went to work and that was it..crying jags/the whole 9 yards

i knew i had to do sumpin or i was gonna relapse big time..i was always a gym rat/busy busy all the time...i re-read the thomas recipe and took the recommended doses...tyrosine helped me with nrg the most so i knew i was dopamine deficient so later started wellbutrin...i got up and went to the gym whether i felt like it or not...and i MOVED..u gotta move or the mush monster will get u...take a look at the thomas recipe at the recommended doses of the supps...bulk nutrition has them in powdered form so i could mix them with EmergenC and not take so many pills to get the doses recommended
aftercare is crucial right now..90 days is the goal right now...it takes that long for ur brain to heal enuf to ward off the depression u r having..and the supps help the brain heal..try it..u might like it! make it 90 days and c how u feel..dont cave before ur 90 days....set short term goals..often only one hour/one day/one week..."I will not cave today" can often be a goal..meetings empower u..if u have any pills in ur possession, they gotta go...let go of those puppies as they only bring us depression anyway...this depression u r experiencing will pass...the depression of continuing to use will stay and stay/and it doesnt ever get any better/addiction doesnt/only worse

u r moving forward..u r hitting a bump in the road but jump over it...set ur goals and stick to ur guns..dont let go of urself..cos the pills will take ur inner self away from u..and then u have nuttin left...keep moving forward

[Texanaddict]

Hun you REALLY need to have a long talk with your Doc. There are probably 50 different antidepressents on the market now and whatever you take isn't cutting it.
Congrats on kicking norcos that in itself should lift your spirits. Yes depression is normal after quitting opiates but usually fades over several weeks UNLESS you have always used an AD. You sound like somebody who now has no opiates in her system that the AD you take is not right for you anymore. Talk to your Doc about switching to something else even if you have to divulge the addiction. He will know which AD you may need NOW that you are clean. You are at the bottom but it does get better everday little by little so much that it may take a week to notice the progress you have made.
Stay strong and busy and exercise is good for depression.   Tex