procastating- setting date.

[scoenen]

I am now at the point where the amount of oxycodones I take help a little bit with the pain and only keep the withdrawals at bay, no high.  I have been at the stage since I quit Fentanyl and am terrified of the withdrawals.  The Fentanyl withdrawals are still fresh in my mind and I keep procrastating.  I want to ve off these dang pills so bad but I am afraid of the back pain and withdrawals.  I am afraid of letting go of my safety net.  I just need encouragement to get off my butt and do the d#@M thing.  

I know I am ready- I no longer get any enjoyment from the pills and I take 5 mgs or less each time for a total of 15 to 20mg a day.  I have oxycontins that I was prescribed and decided that it was the last thing I needed to take so I got rid of those so their was no temptation.  

Right now, I wake up every morning nauseous and nervous so I know that I will have a tough go of it, maybe not as bad at the Fentanyl but no picnic either.  I think I am psyching myself out.  

[Mangee]

I usually post on the social side but I peek in here once in a while. I thought maybe i should do a post here in the hopes that it will help a little.

Procatination is not failure. It is usually a way of gathering yourself together for the next battle. There is not a person alive today who has not at one time or another put off something because they were not ready at that time. Eventually they take the bit in their teeth and move ahead. You have probably noted that your mind was doing somersaults as it gathered the info and the strength to say,"Okay, I'm ready let's do it." Once you have made the first move and you find that you are able to do it you weill find yourself saying ,"Whew, I'm glad that's done," and you are then read to go to the next step. For a while each step will seem harder than the last until you reach the point where it starts to ease off and each step becopmes a little lighter. That is where you begin to straighten up because the load is now not so heavy and is a little easier to carry . from then on each day will bring a little more light into your life until you are finally basking in the sunshine of freedom from the pill. It is well worth it and if you want it bad enough, it is there for you.

[LMB01]

I understand all too well. I am SO sorry you are going through this. Bite the bullet and DO IT! Because I know you CAN! I procrastinated as well, recalling the WD's from previous times trying to quit. 11 days ago I woke up and surrendered. I made my mind up- I was done. No turning back. I faced the WDs head on, and just kept telling myself "this shall pass." I was a chronic relapser for many years, I would get a couple years clean just to go use again. I will not and cannot do that again.  I am a worthwhile person and deserve a better way to live...and guess what...you do too!!! :)

I am here to help, in any way possible. I only 11 days into this battle, so I am right there with you! We can get through this....together!!!!

[quitinoxys]

I know how you are feeling, I myself struggled with going CT and fear of w/d. I am now 52 days clean and it was the best choice I ever made in my life. I hope you can gain the strength to just do it. If you have been reading the posts on this forum you should know by now that it can be done and if you need support just keep on posting here as we are all pulling for you. It feels great to have control of your life again and not rely on pills. Please do it today, I will be praying for you.

[LeaAnn807]

TODAY is a good day!!! : )

Look, you can keep dreading it, or just get it done!  You are most likely not going to go through anything nearly as bad as the fentanyl WD.  I have been there....NOT fun!  But you can do it!  No matter what, you can!  Get the stuff you need from the store, wash your comfy clothes and every bath towel you own, and go for it!  : )

[scoenen]

Thanks tramahater.  I know I am just freaking out but I remember that even after 2 weeks from the Fentanyl I was still feeling pretty bad and after a month I still had sleep and anxiety problems.  I am just being a pansy and know that I need to (wo)man up and do this thing.  You are right.  I do need to get if off my plate and become the person I suppose to be.  I read all the posts about people getting off and I am not only happy for them but jealous that they are on their way and I still have another round of detoxing to go.  I need to stop being a defeatist and remind myself that this withdrawal with not be as terrible or as long as the Fentanyl and if I could do that without looking back, I can do this.  Thanks for the reminder,  I will pick a day today.


I really needed that!!  Thanks for the push.

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  You just need to do this, and get it off your plate!  You have read enough on here to know that you will get support from us, so you need to just get it over with.  You are not on a huge dose, so after 3 or 4 days of being ill, you will get better!

DO IT!  We will help you! : )