its been awhile and I'm struggling....bad

[solost170]

hey guys I dont even know anymore how many days I have been clean lost count but I'm struggling depression has been awful kinda lost my zest to much going on in my life. to many days stuck in this house I'm a very active girl never sit still for to long so I feel like I'm going crazy I miss my car. And to be honest everyday I hurt so bad the other night I was up all night with my legs killing me brought me to tears that and the headaches are terrible I do not want to be on medicine but Id be lying if I said I havent thought about it. just to have relief but I know its short lived Id have to stay on em and I dont want that I'm so frustrated the quality of life is a struggle I hate not being able to do the things I used to be able to do I know it sounds like I'm complaining dont get me wrong I'm glad that I quit em cause I do not wanna be chained to the bottle but I dont wanna live in pain day in and day out guys I dont know what to do here help I need advice what do you do when over the counter just dont cut the mustard I'm not depressed because I'm not taking medicine or maybe I'm heck I dont even know. I havent been on here much kind needed a break I talked to one on here who I can say is like my sister she is a ray of sunshine she will never know how much of a joy she has been in my life. all of you have been I know its selfish I should have been on here helping where I could but its hard to give advice when you arent in a good place in your own head. I feel like I'm goin to have to make some changes in my life and it has nothing to do with pills I'm just unhappy right now. I wonder how long I have been off em anyways Id have to go count its been way over a month its close to two now wow just looking for advice I guess I dont know what to do.... I cant keep this up the leg thing is about to drive me insane I cant handle it plus I have strept throat to so I feel like crap again. ugh

[GarbageAddict360]

I am so sorry that you are feeling so down and out.  I know that in the beginning I was having horrible headaches, but in time they did subside.  Are you taking any vitamins to help support neuromuscular communication?  I had horrible back pain and I found taking Magnesium and Potassium really helped out.  Also, there is an Amino Acid Protocol at the bottom right of the page that I found very helpful.  I don't know if you have tried attending NA meetings, but I highly recommend you do. NA really focusing on the aspects of addiction and why you started abusing drugs in the first place. If you take the time and work the steps, it will open your eyes to who you truly are, what makes you happy. Its all about self improvement and becoming comfortable in your own skin.  Recovery isn't solely about abstaining from drugs. It has a lot to do with changing our behaviors and coping mechanisms, so that life becomes a joy to live. If you ever want to talk, I'm willing to listen. - Kelly

[kyle505]

Sorry - I don't remember all your history...Do you have legit pain/medical issues? If so, and the pain is overwhelming, then talk to your doc. If you need meds, take them. Have someone hold your meds, etc.  
And on a selfish note, I do miss your sunny posts. Hope you get back there soon.

[Brightfutureahead]

Restless legs or leg pain from something before? I was told to make sure I take omega 3,6,9 (fish oil) to combat 'the blues' and I can tell it has helped boost my mood a ill. I'm on day five but this isn't my first rodeo if you know what I mean. I remember feeling like a big lump for a few months after kicking those pills and the lack of sleep didn't help. I dunno...exercise and some omega's...just don't go back on that crap - I know it's easier said than done but it's just not worth it. Hang in there <3