well i tried c/t

[geeves]

well i tried to quit hydrocodone cold turkey and it didnt work. I feel like a total failure! I really thought i could do it. I gave it all I had and failed. I talked to my doctor yesterday and she recommended a taper protocol. So after the 3rd day its supposed to get easier every day, yet for me it got worse and worse daily. I could not take it anymore. I am doing 6 a day for 3 days, then 5, then 4,3,2, and done. hopefully this works or i dont know what to do? other than being physically ill, i was doing great. The diarrhea was so intense i was actually in the hospital for dehydration. This has to work. My fiance is at her ropes end and not happy about taking them again after 7 days. The doctor said I put my self into ANEURETIC SHOCK. I dont know if i spelled that right or not. FYI.... the xanax kept me feeling fine as far as being depressed. they were .25mgs and the 50 mgs of trazadone made sleep MUCH better.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Oh - Fighter - -  i was also in the ER dead twice - - in the ER 3 other times for near death respiratory failure....... Had a great near death / out of body experience last time - -  God spoke to me - and he said that i used up all my "Get out of Jail Free" cards.......  also gave me the choice of just surrendering (Its not bad here - the internal voice said) - - or you may fight for your life - at that time my sons face flashed through whatever consciousness that I had and i knew that I had to get home for him (he's 21 now...)  - -   the next thing I remember was a pulmonologist removing a trach tube that had been breathing for me for 18 hours...........    If you are really a fighter you will fight - - otherwise, you may always just give up.....

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

I spent three years at Club Fed in Milan Michigan for delivering and smuggling of said controlled substance (coke...) - - back in the 80's South Florida was wide open for any and everything...........  And i also learned how to fight there - lets say i got a refresher course.....I am a Vietnam Era Vet and already have plenty of experience killing people.  I also have over 2 yrs clean time from the first time that I got heroin at a place called Phu Bai in 1969 - - - -   If you consider yourself a fighter you will be able to fight your way through this........otherwise you may need more training!  There is a lot of knowledge on this forum - Get strong and use it!!

[Skidmore]

Stay tough guy and anybody else trying to beat this crap. I am clean 8 days today.I have been going through Cold turkey withdrawals.I have tried without any luck tappering down ,The first week has been difficult  at times however it can be done. I was taking 30-40 vikes or 10MM perks a day.for 3 years.I am not out of the woods yet but I feel alot beter,I have been going to N/A meetings staying busy forcing myself to due things.I had a major car reck and have cronic pain but its not all the time, last nite was the worst of it . I know for me if I take 1 pill withjn a week or so I will be right back were I was.I dont want to go back there .I love posting on this site My prayers are with you and anybody else that I can be help to.Your comments and feedback is something that I draw strengh from I love you people

[geeves]

well i am doing the taper and am on day 2 of 5 a day. its kind of rough at the end of the day but it is tolerable compared to what i was going through. btw, the **** above were supposed to be pedo-p-h-i-l-e. one guy in there molested and raped his 4 year old nice, shattered her pevic bone, and caused such bad internal bleeding she almost died. she was in the icu for almost a year. I got more time than him. Thats pretty bad that i got more time than him. oh well its almost over and i hope this works. I will have to do a medical detox if not!

[geeves]

      Trials and tribulations of a self-proclaimed rock star.
                  This will be the name of my book.

I have walked a path in life that many have not. By the time I was 6 years old I was called dead 4 times. My asthma was so bad that it was killing me. Literally. My family moved from Oklahoma City back to Dubuque Iowa so that we would be closer to our family in case I did happen to not come back to life. It was crazy, almost instatly my asthma went from killing me to not even needing an inhaler. Thats weird. 1988, I was 7 years old and kept passing out when my pulse would increase at all. The doctors at the ER were persistant that it was asthma again. On Dec.23 I dropped while shoveling my grandmas driveway. My mom would not leave the ER until every test that could be done was done. Next thing I was in an ambulance going to Iowa City. They said I had B-Cell Lymphoma and Type-3 Leukemia. Both had no cure. They tried all experimental meds. 2 years later they said I had been on placebos for 3 months and was in full remission! 2002 BUSTED! I was indicted for delivery of 119 ounces of cocaine. Long story short, I went to federal prison for 42 months. Never been in any trouble before and I serve more time than any ********* I was locked up with. I get out of prison, start to train to be a professional MMA fighter. While in the federal pennitentuary USP Terre Haute, I find out I can fight. So lets train. My first birthday home, sparring with my roommate and he broke my wrist. I go to the ER the next morning and they give me gold.....Oxycodone. I take 2 and LOVE it. 2 years later here i am. In all of my life experience, you guys are the most positive and nice I have ever met. I WILL beat this and I think it will be in part to people like you. I hope you all get everything you want in this life and then some. Thank you so much. Without this forum and people like you all, I will not lose the only thing I have ever wanted with all of my heart, my fiancee. This site and you people will be a part of my life forever! God Bless you all..I owe you one!

[gnarly_1]

hey geeves ...sorry to here your C/T dident work out it su## after 3 days but withdrawals
can be ruff...I just wanted to let you know tapering worked for me I had a huge habit to break 150ml of methadone  it took me 8 1/2 mo but today I got 88 days clean...
I used a formula given to me by a neo/natal nurse that brings babys off heroin ,methadone ,oxy ,ext it goes like this 10% drop in dose every 72hr it is very doable
and I would recommend it to anyone ...for pills I would try 1 less ever 72 hr it will give your body a chance to adjust to the lower dose and you wont feel as much withdrawal
even tapering you have withdrawals just not as sever as going C/T ...tapering takes some perseverance and a lot of discipline....but I broke a 10yr pill and 6 1/2yrs on methadone habit so just know any thing is possible if you put your mind to it
good luck with your taper...keep posting im shure you will be successful...Gnarly  

[melinda147]

Hi geeves
I did a taper when I quit my drugs it was the only way I could do it and still function,
It sounds like your pretty determined to do this, so I think you will do just fine keep posting to us and let us know how it is going,,,
and remember keep on thinking about when you are free from the chains and you  will be free from thiis...
that will be a good day...
Talk to you soon, Melinda

[kickpainmeds]

What's up greeves, I have been taking hydrocodones 10-500 for 4 years now and has lost a lot on the way(even myself) it really does get better. I'm on day 3 and feeling so much better today. This forum has helped a lot. I was having very depressed thoughts(which is normal) but try to meditate as much as possible. The brain has been damage for so long and it takes a few days for it to function properly again. You are headed in the right direction. I know how you feel, but what does it for me is not tapering off, its the excitment of getting back control with my life. Sometimes it helps to hear sucess stories. My uncle was taking up to 20 a day for 10 years and now he has been clean for 7 years now so it can be done. You have came this for, just try to find something to focus on and take it one day at a time. Its worth your life. Hope you hang in there. Jay