just want to say i am in repair! I have lost me for along long long time! everyone here i just want to say i feel for each and everyone of you. addiction in any form is prolonged time. certain members in here and you know who you are a great teachers and friends with bigger hearts then any.(gizzy,ibclean,and all you others) I have been to the depths of hell many times and returned many more in my addiction. only on day five once again from millions of times. im just rambling but want to say i have lost everything to addiction, wife, everyday life with my ten year old daughter. and much much more. i have lost my soul and want to eran it back i mean for the first time EARN it back because decisions we make have consequences. for the first time i dont get mad at night with no sleep and twitching off my bed . bring it on i am turning the pain on itself. After all as addicts its all about us. im tired of being selfish and want to care about others. I earned this after all. I CHOOSE LIFE! I love you all and feel for each and eveyone in here.