what do I do?

[babybrowneyez14]

Ughhh, I feel like I am going out of my mind, last October I got into a really really really bad car accident, I have been on Lyrica, Norco, Oxycontin, Ativan, Xanax, Ambien, and also had Gastric Bypass surgery in september of 06' .... so besides all the supplemental vitamins and anxiety/depression from that... my doctors are cutting me from everything but my Ambien which I use to sleep.. I suffer from severe anxiety and have 5 pills of Norco left. I'mseriously freaking out because over the past year since the accident I didnt realize how addicted to the pills my body became. I have gone a total of 4 days total this past year with no medication and the withdrawals are awful. I feel like I'm going to blow someon'es head off, or just go insane. I'm terrified of this battle I have ahead of me and don't know how to explain to friends or family what I'm going through. I'm soooo mad at the doctors for prescribing me it in the first place, let alone cutting me off cold turkey...I know I needed the pain meds because I've gone through 14 surgeries since Oct 07, I just want to know if anyone knows any way of reducing the withdrawal symptoms... Should I just lay in bed till I feel better and not move, or will it make things worse?... I wanna cry at the thought of it all... please message me if not on here...
  Leena Marie

[babybrowneyez14]

The ativan was early on and haven't been on it in awhile, and the xanax I was on (half a bar a day)... dont know the mg, but it wasnt prescribed to me  I was getting it elsewhere because I felt the doctors werent listening to me... I now am prescribed the lowest dose xanax twice daily... but dont take it regularly. The Lyrica really scares me but thats a nerve pain pill that you are suppose to be regulated on which i'm not. Because I'm sooo ready to be off all the pills I'm going to stop taking that as well. Lyrica gives me the shakes and almost makes me feel really dizzy and lightheaded. I want to be able to wake up one day and say I NEED NOTHING. Since the car accident I've been in physical therapy/speech therapy and been recommended to see a therapist but have cancelled every appointment for the therapist. My physical therapy is kicking my *** though I go 3 times  a week and it's very painful... for the doctors to say they are going to completely stop giving me norco that i've been on for the full year.. cut me off completely makes me soo happy but at the same time pisses me off unbelievably. And I dont understand how I can feel so strongly both ways. I want to quit, but I know I need it, and I dont want to go through thw w/d.... I'm just a mess right now, and cant explain any of it to anyone.....i feel like no one gets it... or me. :(

[worried878]

I am not sure how much xanax/ativan u were on...but benzos are not a drug to CT from.. needs to be tapered due to seizure risk...i would think your doctor would know this and not completely cut u off from a high dose....the narcotics are ok to ct as a rule..u may need to see someone to assess this situation before something happens..again i dont know ur doses or anything....keep posting