Great news waz, do what you have to do with the ambien, just wanted to tell you that with me I am sleeping really well at day 38. You might be surprised at how fast that sleep issue can turn around. Great you came clean with you doc, I am looking forward to doing that with my new one . . .when I pick one.
Bryan
What? You're giving up the forum for a life? Well, enjoy. You deserve it. Let us know what being forum-free for awhile is like.
Hi sweetie. So proud of u!!!! Glad u got sleep. Feels good doesn't it!!!! My OTC stuff has been working so I too am enjoying the sleep right now. But so proud u have made it this far!!!! I can't wait to be where u are!!! U have overcome so much. I look forward to following ur journey. Big hugs!!! Mad love for u. So friggin proud of u!!!!;) xo
Great to hear you got some sleep Waz! now go enjoy a yourself a wonderful weekend .
Peace my friend.
Despite my strong misgivings about taking Ambien - and trust me I have them - I will tell you that I took an Ambien CR last night and slept for 9 hours. I woke up with no anxiety, refreshed and ready to face a full weekend with my wonderful niece working outside and having some fun. This was a critical step for me. I have not felt this good since this journey started and I know most of my stress, anxiety and general malaise was due to no sleep. And I also know it is the last of "stuff" to come back to you.
I have no intention of depending on this pill to continue helping me sleep. I can't go to pills thinking they help me when I know all we do is become dependent. I won't ever go back to that point. Tonight I'm going back to my bath, Magic Mary CD and see if that will work. On nights where tossing and turning are a given, I'm going to take the Ambien. The difference this morning is one thousand percent for me.
I'm not going to be around much this weekend. I'm actually going to be busy from start to finish having fun with people I love. But that doesn't mean I'm not thinking of all of you and will be checking in when I can. Stay strong this weekend. Remember your commitment. Remember that you, too, will have a day like I'm living today. Alert and alive and breathing and filled with energy. It is, hands down, the most awesome feeling I've experienced in years. Seriously. I am alive. In so many different ways. Stay Clean. waz
Wow that went by fast huh??
Keep kyles advise. It's good.
Way to go.
3 weeks already? My, time does fly when you're having fun. It's all down hill from this point. Just pay attention to the voices; watch the temptation, especially in stress situations...but you know all this. I'm very proud of you.
Many congrats.
I gotta tell ya waz be super careful with that ambien. It's good that you've reconnected with your Dr. but it's super easy to trade addictions right about now and I'd hate to see that happen to you given all you've accomplished so far. This is a really long battle - as I'm sure you've surmised by now. But I promise you it really does get better with every passing day - even without the sleep, you're body actually is healing.
So hang in there - the ultimate goal is to get by without any chemical help so keep your focus on that okay? I think it's great that you're posting your experiences here because it's going to help a lot of people. (me included - even to this day - almost two years clean - I still look for inspiration wherever I can get it. You can never have TOO much inspiration right? lol :)
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Stay on it and stay strong...