Hello Kris,
This is Gator.......
I'm not trying to judge anybody........You have to be selective in the choices you make....... I know you are going through some difficult moments right now........ You must realize whatever choices you make you have to live with the results of those choices............Pain is very difficult to live with...... Try to think about where you have been and where it is you wuish to be going.............. You have three children that truly need you and you want to be sure you are at your best for them........Try not to give in to temptation....... The more you do that the easier it gets........Then you begin to build a road that gets longer and longer.......... Before you know it you will be free of that demon......... Would you like me to search out some people on this site that can help you through their experience?.......
Gator
Kris, I noticed you have a picture of you on a football field in your profile. Do you have any children? I have seen my brother to your point and I know what you are going through. I am here to talk girl.
Do not give in to those feelings. Yes it is a bear to kick, but it is worth it.
no kris come back here. you came here for help to beat this awful addiction....now stay and beat it damnit.