will a small amount relapse me

Question

awhile back I was taking 120+mg of oxy a day. With the help of saboxone and a hotel room a kicked it. After that I couldn't take the mental withdraws so I started taking vic/perq about 6~7 a day, its been 13 days since I've taken anything and my head is screaming at me. I wish all of you luck and prayers bc I know what hell it can be. Know you can Doit believe you van. Anyone know if I eat a five if it'll relapse me?. Best wishes.

akitagurl12 · Answer

something else...lol  I learned this the hard way....  when we are off these drugs for a week or longer, and our bodies have already detoxed and begun functioning without it, the possiblity of having an overdose is very high.  An overdose from vicodin feels like your throat is closing, your heart beats really fast and it is hard to breath.  It is the worst feeling in the world.  My experience was light compared to what i heard could have happened from opiate overdose.  People end up in comas and can die.  The not breathing and crushing feeling in my chest & throat was bad enough for me.  And then the embarassment of having to go to en ER and admit what I did...ugh.
  The reason why it is so easy to have a physical overdose is because our bodies are no longer used to the high amounts we took before, but our brains don't get this.  So taking 5 pills, when you used to take 10 or 20 doesn't seem like a lot, but if your body isnt used to it anymore, it can react in a very serious way.  Its not worth playing around with.  OMG just remembering that whole ordeal when I overdosed from a relapse makes me sick to my stomach.  Please dont do it to yourself.

akitagurl12 · Answer

the bargaining and mental games will stop in time too.  Is there a way that you can cut off sources to getting pills?  I know for me, even knowing that i could get pills whenever i wanted would set off the worst cravings.  And if i had any around, forget it, i would have talked myself into taking some.  Besides being patient and giving myself the time needed to adjust to living without taking pills, I HAD to burn the bridges I had to get pills.  Especially in the beginning.  Congratulations on getting through those first two weeks.  You dont want to turn back now, no way.  It will really start to get easier, with maybe a few more bumps in the road...like some sleep issues & cravings here & there.  But I think it is safe to say that nothing will ever be as hard or bad as those first two weeks.  Hang in there, you have much better days ahead of you if you stay strong!

bestrongg · Answer

I'm at work now, threw away all my pills. My mental is horrible but I hit the two week mark today. I feel like I'm weak why can't I make my brain stop!? Its very depressing. Thank all of you for posting, it helps.alot.

mary577 · Answer

Whether 5 pills or 5 mg....don't go back.    You will end up starting the whole process over before you know it.   Stay strong....it will get better.

vicki595 · Answer

Are you asking about taking 5 pills or 5mg?

dede2121 · Answer

It is a relapse but I dont think just 5 will put you into withdrawls again.

bestrongg · Answer

I'm glad anything I or the other kind people who posted could help. Stay sting and believe in yourself.

Crazy_in_the_head · Answer

Thanks for posting. I needed to read this, and also the responses.  It makes me stronger.

kyle505 · Answer

Good. Glad to hear it. I wasn't sure based on your initial post. 
The mental part of getting and staying clean is the hardest part - hands down. It sounds like the very irst thing you need to do is get rid of any pills you have left and then cut all sources. The first 3 or 4 days are the hardest, and you will be tempted - every day. So, if you don't have pills, and can't get them easily, then you won't relapse. That's step one. Let us know how that goes.

bestrongg · Answer

Iam here for help for support. I feel like I'm not getting better most days. The physical pain is gone for the most part besides a lingering ache in my knees. Its my head that won't stop, its.driving me insane. I really thought that I would be ok mentally by now. 
I've read alot of.posts on here and its helped me  immensely. So I guess I'm on here to be helped and help others where ever I can.

kyle505 · Answer

Relapse, in general, means that you've used again for the high, or for any other reason besides legit pain management under a doctors care. If you're asking if you'll go through detox again then yes, you will. 
I have to ask - are you here for help or just to get answers to drug-related questions? Most on this site are trying desperately to quit.

CATUF · Answer

if relapse has a clear line in the sand, it is crossed with using.  So, yes -- eating 5 will count as a relapse. 

using will make you feel better now, but it won't last.  you'll just be putting yourself back to square-one or you'll hope right back into the rut you were trying to get out of when you made the decision to quit.  

the odds are that it will be the latter, that you'll jump back into the mess you were trying to get out of.  if you keep jumping back in, one of these days you won't come back out.

you have 13 days.  if you don't use today, you'll have two weeks.  that's a big deal.  two weeks is a big deal.  two weeks is hard to get to . . . it will look very far away from day-one.  

just focus on today and today only.  don't use today, no matter what.  find yourself an AA or NA meeting and go to a meeting on every day that you would have used.  if you take care of your brain (by not using and eating right), you'll get a little better each day.  

some days will seem like you've gone backard, that you really need to use that day . . . but don't.  that feeling's just another lie of your addiction.  every day that you don't use will take you a little farther away from your active addiction and a little closer to the new life you want.

if you keep using here and there, you'll stay stuck. 

don't give up before the miracle happens.

CATUF
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