xanax addiction

[Doris102]

I have been on xanax for many years,never thought for a minute i would get addicted.
my panic and anxiety attacts are awful, i cant function without xanax.
the doctors kept me on this drug all this time, i know i have to get help.
i am starting to count my pills now,this is so awful.
last week i was running low,asked my doctor for more,he rufused,the pharmacist
filled it.
the doctor was so incinsitive,told me to cut back.how can i cut back,when my body craves it.
i am now taking 1 mg ,the directions say to take 1 every 6 hours...what a laugh...
i take 1 about every 3 hours. when i get company or have to go to the store.(ETC)
i have to take another one,sometime i take 1\2, but it last only about an hour.
I recently lost my husband of 33 years,I am so heartsick and lonley.its just me and my 2 dogs.
i have 3 grown sons,they dont know how to cope with me.i am also a grandmother of 4.
how did i get myself in this mess???? when i talk on the phone,i get so nervous talking,i have to tell them i have to go.
getting to nervous to talk.I dont know how much longer i have in this world of ours.
but i would like it to be somewhat normal. idont know how to kick this awful addition.
I need HELP NOW !!! I should have done something about this years ago,
I didnt, so now im in limbo and want off this up and down roller coaster im on.
PLEASE !! CAN ANYONE HELP ME ?????

[Doris102]

Hello there,
than kyou so much for your response,this is a great site.glad i found it.
you are so right ,about doctors be ignorant,i wish that he had never given me more
when i ask him for them.he should have kept me on a low dose.
since i lost my husband ,i have taken more and i am up all hours of the night,cant sleep.
the sorrow is killing me.mysons are all grown adults,have there own lifes plus working,so they cant help me. i wish i had someone to live with me,i wouldnt be so lonley.
my 2 dogs are my comfort.
i am going to try my best with xanax thing,alittle at a time.
thank you soooooooo much for your help.
sending you lots of hugs

[Doris102]

Hi there,
so nice of everyone ,what a great site this is.
I really like your advice.yes i always take a pill before i go anywhere.
i dont like the feeling when they wear off.i never leave home without them.
i have taken more everyday since i lost my wonderful husband.
it has been shear hell.  im alone with my 2 dogs. i cant sleep
or eat,to many sorrowsi have been up since 1:30 this am.
this is why i  am taking more xanax.
my doc put me on a new anti depressent,they make me feel strange.
but i guess i had better do something,the depression is killing me.
i have to look into a drug program.otherwise i am not going to make it.
thank you so much for your concern.
hugs to you.

[troubleinohio]

Ive been on xanax for years too. Im on .5 mg and was Rx'd to take up to 3 a day. I usully only take 2 or less a day- i break them in half and take them 4x a day (at .25 a dose). The last month I almost ran out early, i only had one left when refill day came and Ive never had that happen in years. I had used a lot when i was really sick with bronchitiis and asthma-- i was having massive panic attacks due to not being able to breathe, and was popping them ALOT to get through that, so that is why i almost ran out early. normally i have extras each month when refill time comes. But my time is comign soon where my Dr will cut me off. He already dropped my quantity from 90 to 60 the last time. So Im trying very hard to take less each day. So far Im doing well, not having worse panic attacks or anything. Alot of times I would take one as preventive when i wasnt even panicking, KWIM? Id get scared that if i didnt take a dose before i ate, that Id get a panic attack and then the xanax wouldnt work fast enough if i had a bunch of food in my stomach in the way. So ive stopped doing this, not using it as a preventive.  YOu have to start somewhere too. GO to the store without taking an X first. Keep it in your purse at first, in case you do have a panic attack in the store or something, but dont take it before you go. you have to retrain yourself. Also you might want to read some books on panic attacks and taking control of your life again.  I know its hard, but you need to do something. you can PM me anytime if you want to talk more.  Keep us posted on how you do. THis place is awesome.  

[Doris102]

Hello,
what a wonderful site  that i found,i cant believe the support group
here.it make everthing worthwhile.
you have some very good advice.i knew all along that i should havetried
harder along time ago that i should try to get off of xanax.didnt really
know that it would be so hard,
I thank you for your response,I pray everyday for guidence from God to help
methrough this.
thanking you so much.
Doris

[Doris102]

Hi Lesa,
i want to thank youfor your response.It means alot to me.
i am trying,but i dont know how much of this i can take.what drugs
are you on or getting over.i hope its getting over  !!!
i never realized what drugs can do to a person.it s awful.
take care hun
Doris

[carliejo]

I FORGOT TO TELL WHEN MY HUSBAND O.D IT WAS XANAXS ANS SOMA,LORCET THAT KILLED HIM AND BY RIGHTS I STILL WONDER TO THIS DAY WHY    AM   I ?????A LIVE CAUSE I DONE ALOT MORE DRUGS THAT HIM WHEN HE DIED!!!!!!!