Thanks everyone for your support and feedback... I have actually been visiting my Grandma for the past 2 weeks, and I haven't been drinking while I have been over here.... yeesh I have an urge to drink, but I'm going to be getting addiction counselling, and will be attending an aa meeting... I want to learn the 12 step program. I guess that's the best thing I can do. Being away from alcohol from along time... well I just don't really think about it anymore, but I will be reintroduced pretty soon so I need to be prepared for it.
hi. you're on some shaky ground right now. if you can actually stop for a period, you are in better shape than i was. i could not stop, not even for a few hours. and adding cocaine or other drugs into the mix just makes things potentially more catastrophic. your condition will progressively get worse if you do not stop. and it will get harder to quit as time passes. the best advice i can give you is to go to aa, and keep an open mind. if you're not ready to do whatever you have to to stay sober, then keep drinking until you are ready----hopefully you won't die, kill someone else, contract disease, or end up locked away somewhere first. i'm sorry if that sounds harsh, but that's the honest truth from someone who's been there and done most all of it. this is not a pretty picture no matter how glamorous the media and advertisers make it out to be. i've seen people die firsthand and it's not a good way to go. find an aa group and try to identify with the similarities----not compare the differences. if you will be painstaking about this you will get answers, but more importantly, you'll get the solution to the problem. best wishes, gm
i've been sober/clean 25 years....began at 28 am now 53....gotta change them ppl places and things like AA says!i did that went to AA and NA...also found other helpful info at SOS and RR.....its not as hard as u think....its necessary if u wanna live...it is focused work but well worth it if u wanna have a good life!
Thanks for checking up on my I appreciate it. Alcohol has been the prime substance of abuse in my life time and thrown me in all sort of strange directions. I don't like admitting to it but I use Crack cocaine time in time for the past 2 years. I'd use it and just be like WOW what an amazing feeling. Then I'd use it with my drinking... Then i'd drink and be like damn i gotta get some of that. I'd use about every month on average, then I quit that for 8 solid months because I finally convinced myself that it's about the most evil drug out there. I mean, I break down in tears when the supply is out. The past month has been crack use every 2nd or 3rd day... But i decided I'm putting the breaks on that stuff HARD.
I have forgot things, and my brain just feels fuzzy after using that stuff, even my eye sight is fuzzy. Last time I remember when I quit steady for 8 months, it took about 2 months for my brain to feel normal again. One time when i took that while drinking i had heart pains, chest pains, almost had a heart attack one time... yea that stuff is bad news... and i always just end up wanting more.
I think the fact that I've been smoking crack is my real wake up call... that I have a serious substance abuse problem... and it all primarily stems to alcohol.
I have been using Lorzepam to calm me down lately, from the doctor, it helps.
No but I'm determined to get sober... and I'm gonna need all the help I can get! Any other suggestions people?
Hey, I'm sorry to hear what you are going through. I am currently in the same situation myself, a little different though because I am also withdrawling from a 10 a day lortab habit. My sister has been in AA for over 8yrs and she is sober. She still has the desire to drink at times, but otherwise she is flourishing, her career, her energy, her relationships, her life. We are not very close do to the fact I have not yet been able to deal with my alcoholism, though I am 29 days free of pills. She said she has to get out of the house, do everything different, anything you associate with drinking avoid. Again, this is her advice, I'm not there yet. Also, an AA meeting. Do you abuse anything else. Good luck, I'll be checking on you.