Alcoholism and Depression

[Bob185]

Hi  -  Appreciate a post to vent - I feel that I am always apologizing - especially to my ex - jsut trying to survive day to day - bob185

[Bob185]

thnaks - need all the help i can get

[Tink70]

Chemically speaking - you are going through a really normal period of detox depression.  Sounds like you might wanna visit the doctor again though and have a re eval of your meds.  Withdrawal depression from alcohol is nothing to play around with!  Years of messing with your brain chemicals with alcohol abuse takes careful monitoring just as years of not living life on life's terms takes meetings and step work and sponsors and constant AA fellowship!  I had to have outside medical help with the withdrawal depression and other imbalances that I was unaware of.  If I hadn't, I would have ended up in a bad way so I would hate to see that happen to anyone else.  Might be something you should check out.  I took Campral for awhile but had to add on other things to help me through the first year.
Hope all goes well.

[VOR]

I'm not fully aware of all that you're going through but . . . you have kids and nothing should distract you from them.  Don't apologize for things.  Fix what you can and accept what cannot be fixed.  You need to be an integral part of your kids' lives.  Be honest with them, and more importantly yourself.  Don't put yourself in a position where you feel you have to apologize.  In the long-run, your kids will appreciate a father who's honest and who's there for them as a loving caring father.

There is far too much good in life and you deserve to share in that good.

[Bob185]

i am not doing well - it seems i have lost alot of my will - i cant take not being home and with my kids - i have lost so much of myself and dignity - i hate this isolation - my ex is thriving and i want her to be well, but she is doing it off my back and i dont say anything to the kids and pretend i am "fine" because i dont want to upset them or feel bad for me.

[TJack]

Glad you are still with us on here Bob.  Been wondering how you are doing?  What are you filling your days with?  Are you taking the campral?   Anyway , keep reading posts and working on staying sober.  Life is out there waiting for you.  I wanted you to go to my page and read 2 posts from Harry.  He is in Australia. I think those posts might encourage you.  tj