so glad to hear u are continueing along the road of recovery.....it is always a journey and never a destination....we are nothing more than guides and mentors here......u are the ONE that does the hard work and so glad our experiences and insights have helped you find your own path.....see?then in AA one or more will come along that will benefit from your experience and you can guide them....the cycle of service work!oh yes!:)
Thank you all for the help. If not for you, I would be withering away in my own head or getting myself into more trouble and denile. I have 38 days sober now, and I go to at least 1 meeting a day. I'm slowly making new friends, and starting to appreciate the people I used to hate. I can't thank you enough. Sometimes I still feel lonely and depressed, but I know how to manage that better now. Instead of getting drunk or high, I go to a meeting or do an activity. Recently I started to get depressed again, so I reread all the advice you all gave me, and it reminded me why I'm doing what I'm doing, and who I was before I committed to sobriety.
I'm discovering who I am for the first time, and dealing with genuine relationships for the first time. A couple of months ago I was only living for myself, and I had almost no one. Now, although I have much to learn, I try to live to serve.
You've spared me 38 days of misery, and for that I am grateful.
Thanks again,
David
Good for you on attending meetings......Recovery care is so vital to our success. All the best~~~~~sara
thanks! hope youre doing well too
so glad you found the rooms!keep attending....hope you find a good sponsor!
if youre young and looking for help on this website, go to AA meetings. im in the first 2 weeks of sobriety right now, its weird and hard but AA is a huge help. i was curious enough to be looking online for answers, so i thought i might as well get instant answers at a meeting. good luck
well u know in your head whats goin on....you know in your heart and you struggle with it...like we all did.....when it sinks to your gut and all 3 line up and hopefully u'll make the committment to abstinence from ALL liquid and other forms of chemicals.......i've seen ppl your age do it......hell i was 28 when i went to my first young ppl's AA meeting!i had 60 days of sobriety and there were ppl in that room younger than i with more recovery.I really had a ton of admiration for them and that!Don't let this cunning BEAST ruin your dreams and academic goals.It can and will if u allow it!
i'm starting to realize it from talking about it. i found a good counselor at my school today, hopefully the fog will begin to rise and i can get off the rollercoaster
u've received very good feedback here and i hope u take it to heart and WAKE UP to your alcoholism.I began to drink at 14-drank to get drunk-was there any other way?i always seemed to be missing the OFF switch.I thought blackouts were a normal part of drinking for many years.Regular pot use occurred at 17 until age 28.Then came forays with LSD ,Valium and i ended it up with a nice cocaine habit.Something knocked my noggin to accept my alcoholism/drug addiction.....i wearied of the blackouts,drunk driving,trying to stop only to replace the alcohol with another chemical......AA has a awesome pamphlet called The Merry-GoRound of Denial.Then there are these things called friends.....calling to see if i wanted to go out and get drunk,calling when they knew i had a lot of pot i had just bought....but when i made the decision and the committment to get sober/clean the calls stopped.Good!One of my friends said to me that he could no longer hang with me for i was a reminder to him of the problem he had that he was unwilling to do anything about.That was 26 years ago and today he looks like a withered alcoholic which he is and i look pretty healthy which i am!So take charge of your life, your sanity and your future for your friends don't worry about you like you do them,they are concerned with their own party/buzz!Go sit in a AA meeting and listen,don't compare yourself out of the room!No one is ever to young for alcoholism and many of us here are cyber proof of it!
Take a trip to the Substance Abuse forum if you dont think coke and heroin are bad. I am a recovering alcoholic/drug addict. I almost lost my life from both of these.........sara
Thanks his3707, we seem to be coming from a similar place. You make some good points, it seems like alcohol has been slowly holding me back and draining my ambitions. I've been waiting for the weekends and feeling like hell on Monday-Wednesday, only to feel better Thursday and start all over with the heavy drinking. We've both probably taken enough life-threatening chances. It's really hard to see the big picture for me right now, but I'm hopeful that it will come back.
Making new friends was the part of recovery that was hardest, and that eventually led me into relapsing with my old friends. What I'm going to do now is somewhat of a leap of faith, but I really don't have any other options but to start a new.
I think binge-drinking is the thing that makes drugs like coke and cigs seem not as bad to do, as I too was addicted to cigs once and have done coke a dozen times. I'm studying biopsychology, and alcohol seems to be much worse for your body and mind than pure coke or heroine, which i don't think most people realize. As a kid, we despise and look down on addicts, now I'm starting to realize addiction exists in and of itself, and staying away from addictive substances can alleviate that label of addict.
Good luck man
We are always here if you need to talk. We do understand what you are going thru. sara
thanks for the honesty, i'll be sure to keep your opinions in mind as I go through this trial
You sound like a puppet. Your friends pull your strings and you do whatever they tell you. If you continue on this path you are on they will be coming to your funeral. Binge drinking like you are doing is deadly. I live about an hour away from a college town and 6 young people died in less than a year. You have a life time ahead of you but your hopes and dreams will go right down the drain if you dont do something now. Your mom is an alcoholic so that is one strike against you already. We as children of alcoholics are at a much greater risk of being one ourselves. Please get back into counseling or check out some meetings. Drinking is only a symptom of what is really going on with you. As for the friends, either they accept your decision to stop or kick them to the curb. Real friends will support you. Make you the no.1 priority and get some help with this. You wont be sorry~~~~~~sara
You need to stop drinking now before something bad happens.....
If your friends decided to jump off a building would you join them?
Get back talking to your councillor keeping in mind that they can only help you if you are totally honest with them....
I can identify with you but unfortunately I did not listen to people who predicted that I was in trouble with my drinking and so continued to drink, I stopped drinking many times and eventually got sober in 2002, I had and continue to have medical problems due to my drinking even though I have not had a drink in many years.
Once an addict always an addict, I decide each morning that I am not going to drink, I dont plan to stay sober for a week a month or a year I deal with today and I dont allow anyone or anything to change this. Friends can accept this or take a hike. It is MY sobriety, it is my life and it is my sanity that MUST come before everything.....
Ray
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