trying to get a fresh start

[crash2323]

Today I resolved to eat three meals a day, drink a lot of water, take my vitamins, exercise, work on my hobbies and stay away from alcohol.  I was doing well, but the past few days have not been good and I find myself having cravings already today and it's only noon.  Any advice?  I want to quit for various reasons incuding my family and my own health.  I have been in counseling since 2008 and in three detox facilities.  After all that I have come to the conclusion that I do not believe I am powerless over alcohol--I have the power to choose.  And really it all comes down to me making the right choices.  Could use a little support today, though.

[non_f67]

Grab a cold bottle of water, take a 20 min walk, and on that walk, think of a project, that you can work on when u get home.

I'm just beginning the process of ending drinking from a 16 ounce a day habit. Over the last three years I have become almost non-functional so I know where u are at. Even with 'the power to choose', we both will have failures.

But I continually think about the fact that every drink causes physical damage, BP, up immediately, further damage to my circulatory system, one more liver cell lost, one more bit of kidney damage, and most of it is not repairable.

I'll still fail, u'll probably fail some too, but my goal is to fail less, and when I fail to realize that I am just killing myself faster. Make your goal, I can't drink today because (and in your mind (envision each of those cells dying, mourn for it) and then be proud of yourself for not having that drink.

Make it through the day, I'm trying.

[crash2323]

Thank you for your kind words.  I am trying to share my advice for what it's worth.

[Punkinhead75]

I have learned that there have been times and may still be times where the compulsion to drink is too strong for me to overcome on my own.  I am grateful that today I still have a choice to seek out help much like yourself.  When I don't take the proper steps to stay sober I end up going down a dangerous road wher it may become more difficult to do the right thing.  

Anyway,  I'm glad ya popped on here and decided to share.It is raining where I'm at and has been all day.  I went out for a little bit but now I'm cooped up inside. When I get to feeling like you are I try and help somebody else.  It gets me out of my own head and makes someone elses life a little bit easier.  Let us know how ya make out.  Thanks!!!