I live for the days that he is himself and the loveable man he can be. but it is getting further and further apart. He dieing and in some ways I dieing with him. The hardest part is our daughter calls him mean and those are not the memories I want her to have. When she was a baby he held her and they stared at one another and you could see the love he felt.. He played with her and loved her . Worried about her. Now he is always mad at her. When she tries to hug him he gets mad. Just like me. The best memory of him and her together is the day Roger was teasing her about her belly button and she would pull her shirt out and look down at her belly trying to see it, she was 15 months old. I got a lot of pictures and I will put them together of just them and the loveable dad she had.
You are right I keep meaning to write it down as it all happens, I dont mean to but I had to chuckle at your Post and the absurdity of it all, and wondering why I am around.and how much you have put up with ,we have a strong sense of duty I guess and Love...
We almost have to be detectives, doctors, sciencetist, etc. I'm not handling things to good here. I'm the one which is blowing up here. Roger want to still do things but even the simplest stuff he isn't understanding. Raking leaves we have a bag holder and when I was mowing the leaves up he put it up. I got it set back up and after mowing more I went to empty and he had put it away again. When I told him I still needed it He go mad and than I get mad..... On and on.
Wow you certainly have a lot on your "plate" you are wonderful the way you deal with it all, I hope I will be able to cope if I have to , I am still hoping that it is the Toxins and am researching which are the Main ones to effect the brain, a Dr Skinner offered an evaluation he said it sounded like it was neuro toxicity and at least I have my husband listening to me, but he is still there at work ,he is okay till he uses the some of the compound and then that evening he is so aggressive,thats my proof.
Done tried and have her on fish oil, kelp.vitamin-mineral and other type of vitamin, She refused to eat certain food/most she really will fight to the death to eat. We finally got her to eat yogert and forceing her to drink apple, orange and apples , oranges she will only suck out the jucie and After awhile you want to just throw up your hands and say you don't want to help yourself and get ahead you live with it. I'll keep trying to get her to eat more as we go along. Some day her brain may mature and she will understand what she needs to do to help her self/ My prayers are going out everyday. I got going about 8 th grade where I could remember and understood more.Time will see how she handles life and growing up. She has allergys to mold rag weed and lots of other things so they may be acause of some things. She took shots of thing she was allergic to for 2 1/2 years but some thing didn't help. We'll keep trying .
Why not try the Food supplements before you get her on the Meds,as they do have side effects and you may have a problem with her behavior from them,the Meds I mean, I have read recently that a good Multiple Vitamin-mineral with Vit B Complex and Vit C and also fish oil are beneficial to children with ADHD and even though its not cheap it is cheaper than the prescriptions and less invasive than the prescriptive Meds.You are right about the costs and I fear it will get worse.