Suicide because of fears and anxiety

[lana823]

I love this life,I know life is beautiful and worth to live, but if it means I need to live the rest of my life in fears and anxiety, then I think about suicide. I sometimes just can't take the fact that I'm not the same person as before this afull disease. I'm 27 year old, and I'm scared I will have fears and anxiety for the rest of my life.

I have fears of life,I have bizzare thoughts,OCD intrusive thoughts,fears when traveling alone,fears of going to far places because of anxiety and panic attacks ,fear of going crazy etc. Is there a hope? Can people live with anxiety normal like before or this will be part of me until I die?
I even get sometimes fear for no reason,and if somebody would ask me what's wrong with me, I would simply say "I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG ME,I JUST DON'T KNOW"  That is the problem,sometimes I just feel wrong and get fears and can't explain what's wrong, and then I cry beause I don't know what's wrong.

Are anxiety really just about wrong thinking ,should I just accept the fact that my fears and anxiety are irrational and not real? Is it really all in our heads ?
Should we accept anxiety or fight against it? Some poeple say we need to accept anxiety and go trough it and it will disapear,some people say we should fight because if we accept it means anxiety won. I don't know what to believe anymore. :-(

[Irishbred]

Dear Lana, Years and Years ago I suffered horribly with panic attacks.
Some claim it is genetic, s/one in the family may also have them. It took me some time...BUT THEY DO GO AWAY, TRUST ME. There is one
person who helped me understand panic attacks. DR. CLAIRE WEEKES BOOKS, "HOPE & HELP FOR THE NERVES. Go to YOUTUBE and click on that name. A married gent/family will go thru the steps of recovery with you...he also suffered. Claire Weekes won Pulitzer Prize, she also had attacks. FIRST, YOU WILL "NOT DIE", YOU WANT THE PANIC/FEELINGS TO DIE...REMEMBER THAT'S IMPORTANT. Fear creates more fear..then palpitations of heart...then fear you'll die...fear, more fear...LISTEN TO THE TAPE ON AMAZON.COM OF CLAIRE WEEKS also (audio).& get the book. We let our fear 'CONTROL" US..I know very well how horrible these attacks are and feeling desperate. I'm here for you, dear one...and please know that it will pass...but 'DON'T FEAR THE ATTACK...let it come over you and 'TELL YOURSELF, I'M FINE AND I WILL CONQUER THIS FEELING AND IT WILL BE GONE.
I'll be glad to help you in any way I can. I have a friend who is going thru the same now...and it's less ea. day.
Blessing and prayers for you,
Kate

[lana823]

Thank you both.
Yes libbie, it's nice to see how foreingers help eachother on this forum,it's always easy to know we are not only one going trough this. Thank you for your comments.

[libbie123]

I just experienced a month of the hell you' re feeling now. Slowly, its getting better. For me it is a combo of therapy, meds, wonderful sister, and an awesome and understanding work family. Your post is exactly the thoughts and worries i have, and i will tell you i am better than i was just one week ago. You WILL PULL THRU THIS. You are not alone, and btw this is an awesome forum to come to with good advice and encouragement. See? You have 2 ppl you dont even know thinking of you and knowing you will get thru this

[Embrace123]

Honey relax your not the only one . You will be back to normal in no time just take it step by step trust me I understand I'm still battling it. We can get through this. Your more then welcome to private message me if you need to talk