At wits end!!!!!

[Sissypants]

I am fairly new to the board and I have posted a few time but I was wondering if anyone felt light-headed and dizzy every single day with there anxiety....I lost my job due to dizziiness and had every test and seen every doctor there is....Had MRI's,ekg,thyroid panel,cbc,stress test,eyes examined,ultra sound on the arties in my neck...been to the 3 top ENT doctors in my aread and the only thing they could find is a little arthritis in my neck.....

I have had dizziness,blurred vision,neck and back of head pain for over 5 years now....all this has caused me anxiety and depression....the doctors just keep tellling me the same things I have read that many of you have wrote that its all anxiety....is this possible??? I have so many symptoms from dizziness,light-headedness,blurred vision,neck pain,headaches,ears hurt,digestive problems,hurt all over like the flu,feels like a vice-grip or tight rubber band is around my head...eyes do not focus right,always feel off balance...and so many more things....this is daily....I am scared of leaving the house now and hardly ever get out.....my life has just been taken over by this ANXIETY if thats what all this is and if it is why cant someone help me....I have seen so many pyshiatrist and they dont want to listen to you they want to give you a drug and I have tried over 20 different ones in all the classes of meds and I cannot tolerate any of them.....I was on prozac for 4 months and cried every single day I was so depressed.....I finally had to take myself off of it cause the dr wouldnt but couldnt he tell it wasnt working after 4 months.....

I always feel on edge and i have floaters in my vision and all these weird little thiings in my eye vision but the eye exams always come back fine....I feel like I am at wits end with this cause I cant get any help....I am on a small dose of klonipin and hate to increase it cause it already makes me feel so sluggish and sleepy and I need energy....I want to have my life back so bad ....I havent been with my family to outtings or holidays in over 5 years cause I am so sick all the time....its so depressing but yet I feel the dizziness is what brought on the anxiety and depression....I have tried motion sickness pills and the patch you wear behind your ear...NOTHING helps......all I am ever told is you need to be on a anti-depressant and then I read all the post on here about them and how they effect your life trying to get off of them its just terrible....

I worked in a pharmacy for 14 years so I know alot about the drugs and side effects....when I left 5 years ago for short term disability I never ever dreamed i would not return to work that I loved so much....I am so alone now and I feel I lost my identity since I had to leave work....I know I have gone on and on....but was just wondering what I should do....BEEN THERE....DONE THAT....all of it and I am stuck in the pit and cant climb out....need some advice or encouraging words.....I am glad to read on here and I have really learned I am not alone in my feelings and anxiety....I just wish I knew thats what it really is and if it is how do I stop it and go on with my life....I just feel paralyzed with fear...thanks

Sissypants

[Sissypants]

Thanks for your responses....I have tried meclizine and it didnt work for me at all....they say its coming from anxiety and thats whyit doesnt really work....but I know I have a vertigo problem cause I have had it since childhood....even the ENT drs say after the testing they did on me that they can tell I have vertigo but cant see why.....they say its the hardest thing to treat a patient for unless something shows up like a tumor ...etc....but I had an MRI and it was fine....I have tried many anti-depressants as I posted besides prozac....over 20 of them in all the classes but they just make me worse feeling and I cannot handle them.....I have also seen many pychiatrist also but all they say when I finish talking is giving me a script for another anti-depressant which I have already tried....I have seen a couple of therapist but it didnt help and most of the time I cant find one that will take medicare.....I am on disability so I had to wait 2 years to get medicare even though I am not old enough to get medicare thats what they put you on when you go on disability....every therapist Icall they all say we dont take medicare.....I dont understand why when they pay 50% of the bill which can be expensive for me with the other half and beingon disability I dont have much to spare at the end of the month...I will keep trying but its a battle I feel is more than I can handle alone....

Birdlady I am so sorry you are having so many problems also....I know how you feel going from day to day wondering what is wrong with you and no one has the answers or they make you feel like you are just nuts.....I also wanted to check myslef in to a place but the people I know that have been there already tell me its not what you think it is....they make you take the drugs and attend meetings early in the morning....its kinda like boot camp they say....I dont want anyone to force me to do anything especailly taking drugs that make me sick.....so I decided against it also....I do hope you find the help also.....I guess we got to keep fighting this BEAST....it wont go away easily thats for sure if it ever really does.....I dont go anywhere much anymore and the longer I have this the worse it gets...and I am going on 5 years with it.....I stay in most days and try to sit on the porch some in the spring and summer....winter months I go deep deep into depression....I hate to see summer end....I will pray for you to get the help you need as I pray for myself also....We have to remember God is in control and to cast all our fears and worries on him and try to let them go.....ONE day at a time...

God Bless,
Sissypants

[birdlady1979]

I have anxiety and also undiagnosed health problems.I have been told I am"fine" but I think otherwise.Most of the time I find myself cross examining my body,worrying and crying.
I miss my old self.Funny thing is I never worried about health issues until I started having wierd symptoms in fact before they began I hadn't been to the doctor in years.It all began with my dry eyes,then I thought i had throat cancer for two months until I realized it was tonsil stones.I wasted two months staring at my throat in the bathroom crying all day.Could not walk past a mirror without looking,even if I was in the car or restaurant or outside I'd pull out my mirror and look,it completely consumed me.Now with my other issues I spend all day  checking myself and reading on the web.I miss my old self so badly.I have turned into a shell of a person.I'd give anything to be "me" again.But I can't because I do have "symptoms" I cannot just ignore.I have seen a psychologist,my regular doctor prescribed me zoloft which I refused to take out of fear of side effects.I was considering "checking myself in" somewhere to get help and I think that would be good for me to have help around the clock until I "feel better" becuase left to my own devices for even a minute the  worries take over.. but my husband and family discouraged me from doing so.So,I just feel helpless,sad and on the verge at all times.I don't just fear what could be happening at present,I fear for the future too.I no longer go outside in the sun at all,removed all flourescent bulbs from my house and have become afraid of the microwave radiation as well,the more i read about the more I am afraid of.I envy those who live without fear and "smile".I wish there was a magic button I could push to take all this fear away from me.
It saddens me to read that you are afraid too.I know how you feel and there is not anything worse than this.

[Perfectly_Imperfect]

Your first step is to make a phone call to either your primary or to psychologist, you need to talk to someone professionally about your issues. Sometimes you have to go through a bunch of psychologists before finding the right one, someone you're going to feel comfortable with ... and then find a good psychiatrist to prescribe you something other than Prozac. There are several SSRI's out there and one is most def. right for you. Have you tried Meclizine for the dizziness? When my anxiety bursted out of control one of my symptoms was dizziness and even though it wasn't the room spinning (it was more like being light headed) they still gave me the Meclizine and it works. You sound like you are massively depressed and def. need more help than anyone on this board can do. Please call your primary and have them give you referrals to psychologists and psychiatrists, you need CBT + meds to get out of this hole.

On a positive note: it does get better. You just have to take the 1st step towards getting better and you have the believe that you can control these symptoms.