Bad thoughts about death

[Crapman23]

Yes, I know I've came here a bunch of times before, but once again, I can't help it. So, that last bad thought I asked a couple of times about doesn't seem to be bothering me that much, but since I've been going through that summer depression thing, I knew the bad thoughts were gonna hit sometime. However, now, I have bad thoughts about death.

Now, the odd thing about this, is that I have worried about BIGGER things, such as only living once, the purpose of life, the universe and how uncontrollable it is, if we really exist and what comes after death. Never once have I EVER became depressed over Death. Sure, it made me scared, but I was able to accept it, realize I won't be going anytime soon, and move on. NOW, I'm facing the thought of it.

Yes, I know this is the most common fear and anxiety, but it strikes me why it's having NOW, and why it wasn't the first bad thought to begin with when I started having it. Now, I know it's not my time yet, as I'M still a teenager, and when it comes, I would've accepted it, but still, it's affecting me now over the summer. Maybe it's once again, the same boredom = bad thoughts thing, or this terrible heat, and like EVERY existential crisis I have, it will die, but still, I needed to speak up about this, because I'm tired of moping to my family.