DEPERATE NEED FOR YOUR ADVICE

[Johnandbasketball]

Hello , I would like to thank you all in advance and please dont be negative because i am mentally fragile right now . Please answer to the best of your ability . I am a straight male and i am 18 years of age . Around March of 2012 i engaged in frottage with a young lady who status is unknown . All i know is she gets sick frequently . We engaged in frottage and deep passionate kissing . I fingered her . It was dark so i really couldnt see much but i know i didnt have any deep wounds or cuts but i do bite my nails extremely low and bite my cuticles . Well some time after i remember getting sick . I had extreme chills and just felt sick (i do not remember specific details) . But i do remember we did not have penetrative sex but i did finger her quite rough . Okay well time passed and i engaged in the same sexual activites with another young lady in january of 2013 . She i believe was a virgin because she was extremely tight and felt pain when i inserted my finger . She gave me a handjob with spit as lubrication and we also kissed passionately . Around march of 2013 i began to feel joint stiffness and joint pain . It started in my knees and slowly progressed to my other joints . The pain was dull and came and went as it pleased . I started feeling like i was 45 instead of 18 . It started to feel better but continued up until this point . Around august i experienced a very anxiety filled experience when my girlfriend was raped . I began to have diarhea and lost of appetite and basically became disinterested in almost everything dor a few weeks . A few weeks ago i devoloped swollen lymph nodes throughout my body . I havent counted them but multiple in my neck . My groin and my armpit had a dull ache . I then started feeling pain in these areas with a gas like feeling in my lower abdamen that make it feel like someones pressing on it constantly . I have a very judemental family and mother so i am very scared to tell them i think i may have hiv because it w

[remar]

Just go to the top of your home page and it will give you some choices. One of them is forums. Click on that and it will show you all of the forums available.

[anxiety860]

You need to go ahead and post your message there, but they will tell you it is a no risk situtation.  Sorry to hear about your girlfriend I can't imagine how stressful that must have been.... How do you know your lymphnodes are swollen though?

[Johnandbasketball]

Yes i would like my message posted where ever i can get answers

[remar]

No, I don't think you have HIV. Not with what your post said.
I'm so sorry about your girlfriend. I can understand your stress and anxiety over what happened to her.
We have an HIV forum here at Medhelp if you would also like to post your question there. The people on that forum are very knowledgeable and so caring. I really think they will put your mind at ease.

[Johnandbasketball]

Continuation : it would break her heart . I know no one can diagnose me but the majority of you kbow more then me . I also experienced memory loss . Idk if its anxiety or real memory loss because i remember like 2 mins later  

My question are as followed :

What are hiv symptoms ? Like is this joint pain typical for that of someone with hiv ? Would the lymph nodes swell this late with no other symptoms like night sweats weight loss or etc ?

Would me biting my nails so bad play a part in my contracting the virus ? I saw something tbat said your finger dont have cells receptive to hiv is this true ?

My meatus gets swollen from time to time . Its possible it was swollen during these activities . Could the girl have had her vaginal secretions on her hand and then touch
My meatus ?

Could she have infected me purposely ? Like stuck me with a needle without me knowing ? If she was on her period i wouldve seen it on my finger when i went to the bathroom to wash my hand ? Also my finger was extremely dry after i fingered her .

How should i go about asking her if she has hiv instead of all this speculating ?

I also brushed my teeth and used mouth wash before i saw her . Would that play a factor ????????