I was diagnosed as bi polar in middle school , I am 23 years of age now... & I take prescribed sertraline on and off (more off than on) but I've realized I've been experiencing different lengths of maniac depression.. I won't get dressed, socialize with the world.. I sleep into the day & have insomnia at night.. I don't really eat & what triggers it all.. is the fear I have HIV . Every time I have sex (although protected) I fear I have contracted the virus & am approaching death... & then I get tested.. & everything is fine until I have sex again.. sometimes I even think the phlebotomist will infect me.. I can't win for losing . My local clinic has put it in the system that I test too much , & they even tried to refuse me service . I need prayer, new meds & a fresh start .