Do I have HIV or anxiety?

[asmithtwin]

Hi about 5 weeks ago I gave a man oral sex. While I was sucking him I asked if he wanted to do anal sex. As he tried to penetrate my anus I stopped him partly because of pain and also because he wasn't wearing a condom. He never entered my amid but his or is did push up against it, did this pose a risk? I have been experiencing a sore throat and mucus in my throat for about a week now. I haven't had any fevers or rashes but I don't know if sore throat and progressive cough alone can be symptoms of HIV. I spend nearly every waking moment wondering if I have HIV. I'm really losing my mind. I also want to mention that I think I have a wisdom tooth coming in som maybe that could be causing the sore throat. I'm only 18 and I don't want my life to be over before it starts.

[anxiety860]

If you're wondering if that's an HIV risk, I would ask it in the HIV forum, the oral sex is no risk, if there was penetration there will be a slight risk.

Now, I'm sure you're going to be fine. When I was 17-19 years old I had unprotected sex with multiple partners... Very dumb of me.... At 19 I met my now finance, around 22 I developed a a fear of HIV anxiety. I knew in my head I had gotten HIV from one of the girls I slept with without using a condom. Many negative tests later I had to affect I was negative. Forgive myself for my stupid actions. Move on and be happy with my fiancé.

The truth is HIV is rare, and very hard to get. I am in no way saying you should go off and have unprotected sex because chances are you wont get it. I'm simply saying hopefully you can learn from this one time mistake and be safe next time.  Unprotected sex, and sharing needles are the 2 main and nearly the only 2 ways people can get HIV these days.  

Get a test, learn from your experience and move on.

Don't google symptoms, don't over analyze your body, talk to your doctor and keep your mind busy in the mean time.

[asmithtwin]

Yes it has been this way since I learned to use the Internet. Once I thought I had Ebola and I literally started seeing the Ebola skin rashes and everything. I asked people if they saw something on my skin and everyone said that my skin n was fine but I could see the rashes and feel them like I'm always paranoid. I still think I have HIV because I have some mucus in my throat but it's not sore at the moment I just need to learn to stop self diagnosing.

[anxiety860]

If there was no penetration you had no risk.

You say you over analyze things, have you always done this? and if so has it affected you in any way?

Just curious as it can be health anxiety/hypochondria

[asmithtwin]

Thanks so much it wasn't any penetration I'm just scared he has young children so it's probably unlikely that r has HIV but I've always over analyses things like sometimes when I have a headache I think I have a brain tumor like I'm always paranoid.

[des900]

its surely not anxiety and you feeling anxious because of your bad actions. get checked for hiv and also do followup tests. never again do sex like this once you ready to do that all your anxiety will go away.