im at a dead end please read and help

[onedayillbfine]

Im so lost in myself because although i have medical professionals to back me up that nothing is wrong with me,and  I know im not going to die like i fear ( i have health anxiety) my body feels otherwise. I spent about 1 1/2 years trying to figure out why i feel the way i do . LOTS AND LOTS OF BLOOD WORK urinalysis, cat scans , ekgs, mri,s all have come back normal. I just started therapy but i am already discouraged that it will work. I refused to take medication because i was afraid and the doctor told me it would be fine as long as started therapy and i have. Im very sensitive to foreign sensations they send me into a panic even if its familiar. My biggest anxiety symptom and my worst is derealization  i cant seem to shake it making my anxiety and panic worse. I fear because it is constantly there and it makes my vision weird maybe it is a brain tumor .i feel numb inside like literally numb .Its like how do I know im not going crazy? will it ever go away? Is this normal? Is ita brain tumor? pleasy advice would be great i feel so lost afraid sad anxious . thank you for taking the time to read this

[onedayillbfine]

i know how you feel it breaks my heart im sad because i just want to be me gain enjoying things without fearing im gonna drop

[Sagitarius88]

Oh hun I'm like so surprise to see ur post I'm same but my more worry is for my heart, short breathe, numbness in my left arm n left side of chest I ve health anxiety as well n every day it feels like I'm gonna die with heart attack :'( I'm telling u this is worst year of my life I can't enjoy any thing I can't do any little job like washing dishes or cooking or even taking shower, my heart rate is always above 110  GOD knows wen I b ok?