I have had GAD most of my adult life, and it manifests itself in many ways over the years- sometimes health anxiety, or social anxiety. In the last year I started to work for myself, so that means I am in charge of social media, emailing people, calling people on the phone, etc. I have never been comfortable doing any of these things- even my personal facebook page is pretty bleak because I don't ever know what to say, what to post, and if I do, I am always thinking if it was stupid or how people will view me. I hate calling people on the phone, even my family, I am nervous about what to say all the time. I seem to be afraid of everything, fearing I am a failure in life, that no one likes me. It is exhausting trying to be "normal" so people don't see what a worry-wort I am. I consider myself a hard worker, but I am constantly plagued by fear that I am not doing enough, I will let things slip through my hands, I will lose business, etc. All of these things would be ok if they were motivating for me, instead I feel I am slipping into a further depression. I do see a therapist weekly who helps me sort these things out- I guess my question is: do any of you ever feel that everything is so hard even when it's not? Simple things seem daunting to me, and this worries me more than anything else. I have no zest for life, I feel completely run down. Does anyone relate, and if so, was there something you did for yourself to get out of the rut?
Thank you in advance.