Thank you for listening,smg78
Let me describe myself for a bit more,I study master degree and almost finish.I am doing independent study but now I'm not in the mood because of anxiety.Now I don't do anything.I just play internet and trade mutual fund from a bank .I could say that my life is internet.Many times I go to read and reread about hiv. I try to gather strength to go to gym but recently it's hard.
I have never seen therapy because I think that if I take hiv test my fear will disapear but it won't when I always see strange situation that put me in fear again and again.
I'm really interested in seeing mental help but never be able to do so
Potty008,
You are not nuts, a lot of medical professionals suffer from this type of anxiety. You can either use medications like SSRI's but at the end of the day, you will need talk therapy, I suggest a good MSW or PhD who deal with this type of anxiety so they can give you coping strategies.