Little history, so I was diagnosed with ptsd, bipolar, and anxiety with agoraphobia. My pcp gave me risperidone 2mg and hydroyzine 25mg (3 times daily or as needed). I told my psych I didn't want the risperidone because of already existing obesity issues and I told her the hydroy was just drying out my nose and making me feel like I had a sinus infection all the time. So she gives me ativan 0.5mg (one a day), Prazosin 2 ( 1 @ night). As far as I can tell it doesn't work either, I still get really scary nightmares and waking up in tears. The ativan she says to take for my anxiety attacks .. but does NOTHING. I just feel like dying my heart beats too fast, I can't catch my breathe, I'm in literal pain. I will hide under the windows (my brain makes me believe someone is watching me from outside, especially at night I'm scared to go outside at all) She doesn't understand me at all, or doesn't listen, or doesn't care. I don't know which one. I can't go out in public alone. I tried a few weeks back and drove all the way to the store alone without a problem. Then when I went to get out to go into the store I just couldn't open the door. I sat there and cried in my car and had to call my husband to have the neighbor bring him up the street to drive me home. I've tried to explain all this too her but it seems in one ear right out the other, she finishes my sentences for me and tries to tell me how I feel before I can tell her myself and often gets that wrong! She the ONLY psychiatrist within a two hr drive that accepted new patients. Please how can I get her to listen and HELP ME! :'( I just want to walk out the door to the mailbox alone one day at least!!!