My story begins when i was a young boy, people used to make fun of me as "fatty" i used to
take this seriously and become some what introvert .. but i was fine in my behavior till my
teens , i was social and didnt have any problems till around 15 years .
after i joined college ,my world changed i dont know exactly what happened , but i started having anxiety attacks
my lips started to shiver when i talk to people , especially to ladies or families or a group of people etc ,
(if i meet some one after a long time , i couldn't face them , but after 2 - 3 meeting im some what ok)
My lips Shiver when i smile , and i can never smile freely , now i have started to dobt whether this is mental problem or
some physical problem with my lips
But im perfectly ok when im drunk .. intact i drink only to be nice and normal to people
people who talks to me when drunk thinks im nice and social and when they meet me while sober gets dissapointed
im 30 years old now .. i avoid meeting people ,
in my small circle of friends im perfectly ok
and i must say they may not even know i have this kind of problems ..
i have forgotten to smile to strangers now , i try to avoid all social situations
my family has been forcing me to marry .they thinks im perfectly ok . i don't know what to do,
i once went to a doctor and he gave me xenax, but it didn't help me much ..
i have forgotten to smile and live freely , wish i was born again
Thanks!