Help.. Any input I can really use

[Cpadilla210]

About a month and a half ago I had a bad trip on cocaine. I went into a full panic attack got seen by the er and I thought everything was gonna be ok. For the next two weeks my everyday life wasn't the same It was as if I was in a dream like state I had tunnel vision,  basically I thought I was experiencing derealization/depersonalization. I was able to go to work and be around people, had trouble eating. After, this though things seem to get even worse, for the last two weeks I've been to er twice for panic attacks I am no longer working and can't seem to go anywhere or do anything. My counselor has said it is anxiety and I honestly feel I'm on edge of losing it. I do have the meds lorazepam 1mg and it seems to help for about 4 maybe 5 hrs. I don't feel myself I feel lost and confused. When I talk to people it don't feel like Its me talking and for some reason my appetite has dropped dramatically. Please can yall help with any input on what I should

[Paxiled]

It's best to not become dependent on the lorazepam and just take it when absolutely necessary, as it's an addictive drug.  I seriously doubt that one time using cocaine made any permanent changes to your brain other than conditioning you to expect to be anxious.  You may very well have been prone to this without knowing it and the cocaine just brought it out.  Well, it's out now, and again, the best thing is to get into anxiety therapy as soon as possible so you might be able to nip this in the bud and not become dependent on medication.  And no more drugs -- you just aren't the right person for them.  I would also strongly urge you to learn meditation -- I think it will help you and also supply some of what you were looking for by taking drugs.  You still gotta feed your curiosity, just not with drugs.

[Cpadilla210]

Thank u so much for commenting back. It's kind of a dumb question but is it possible that the bad trip triggered something that is gonna be happening for a long period of time. As well as me going thru the cbt do u know if the lorazepam will help as well. Any input will definately help.

[Paxiled]

Think of it as sort of like PTSD -- you had a bad experience and you internalized it, it became learned behavior, and you're mind is spreading it to other things now.  It's what anxiety sufferers do -- we anticipate bad outcomes for whatever reason and so we become more and more anxious and more and more avoidant.  The therapy considered the best for this is called CBT, but any therapy needs to get this in check by teaching you how to decondition the new thinking pattern you've gotten into from this bad experience.  Many people first get their anxiety problems when on a drug -- a lot with marijuana, PCP, cocaine, speed, cortisone, antidepressants that are very stimulating, a whole lot of other pharmaceuticals, or just very frightening experiences.  The trick is to cut it off at the pass quickly by facing it all -- easier said than done, but the only known cure to the problem.  Good luck.