I have to make a new step,I am very anxious about it..

[ThePinkFloyd]

As I say in the title I have to make a new step. After my whole strory with hiv phobia and testing I followed the great advices that I took here and I seek psychological help.This helped me a great deal and I finally got back some of my old life,I began to hope again.It was really helping.I live in a country that serving the army for some time is mandatory.So the army has called me and I will have to serve for 10 months.This means that I had to stop sessions with my therapist.I have stoped for a week now and I feel that anxiety and fears are coming back.I am afraid I will be not able to cope with the allready anxious and pressuring environment of the army.How am I going to focus if I am thinking of hiv and other stuff in there? I just don't know how am I going to be able to get through it...

[ThePinkFloyd]

Thank you very much for your reassuring words and for your prayers :) Unfortunately army does not have any progamms for psychological help.If someone is unstable they just give him a pass and he is not serving.But as I said this is not an option because people who get this paper are people with behavor problems and nobody wants to hire them.I guess I will have to endure it and keep thinking positive.Maby after that I will be able to totally accept my health and go on.I really hope that I will not get any panick attacks in there.I am sure that people there will not understand why I would be having a panick attack and how could they? Well,there is nothing I can do to stop this so I have to wait for it and deal with it best way I can.Again, thank you and everyone else that took time to respond to me and give me strength.

[nursegirl6572]

I'm sorry for the timing of this, no doubt it didn't come at a good time for you.

Does the army offer any kind of help where you could continue your treatment while enlisted?  

I know it won't be easy, but TRY to look at this as a positive thing.  I'm sure it will be a good learning experience, and it will give you the opportunity to meet new people, and experience new things....AND it's not forever.  10 months SEEMS like a long time, but it will go fast.

I wish I could come up with something more reassuring to tell you....I agree that it stinks, as you were doing so well in therapy...however, it also may be a good way to put into PRACTICE the coping skills you've been working on.  Life is always going to deal us a crappy deck from time to time.....and we have to be equipped to go with the flow when that happens.  

Hang in there buddy...I'll say a prayer for you that this transition goes smoothly and that this ends up actually being a good thing.

[ThePinkFloyd]

Today I filed my papers and there is not going back,I will join the army at 15 of September.Everyday I feel closer to this situatios that I will not have any control over my anxiety. :/

[ThePinkFloyd]

Its mandatory.I can get a pass due to psychological issues but it is generally not a good thing.It doesent strike well when you search for a job.They require  the proof that you have finished your army duty.I also have to get through a psychological evaluation of the army.They generally don't give pass for anxiety reasons ecxept if you are in some kind of medicaton that I am not.

[anxiety860]

You HAVE to serve? What if your doctor wrote a note explaining your anxiety? Would this help at all to get out of it so you can continue your sessions? If not remember what you learned from those sessions and remember the FACTS don't believe your anxiety.