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I think my brain/mind is dead

I think it's finally happened. I think I have totally lost my mind. I don't know who I am or what I am anymore. I don't feel like I'm in control of my body anymore. Word come out of my mouth but I don't feel like I said them. When I walk I feel so lost and don't know where I am. I'm just lost and can't do anything anymore. I feel like I can't even really recognize my own family. I think that this is it. I'm either going brain dead or I have to go to an insane asylum. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Nothing is working.
meds, therapist, nothing. :(
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Hey man, I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. But just remember that THIS IS TEMPORARY. YOU WILL GET A BREAK FROM THIS.

I looked at your profile quickly and you wrote " It has come and gone." I'm assuming, your anxiety, depression etc. have came and gone for the past 4 years.

Just think about all those bad/good times you went through. The bad times DID go away!! I have FAITH that the way you are feeling right now WILL EVENTUALLY LET UP!! IT HAS TOO! :) It may come back again in the future, and we can not detect that.

I have been anxiety free pretty much since March of 2014, but got struck on Christmas evening, and have been suffering since. It's unpredictable. But I know deep down that my spell will too soon let up. It may be 1 week, 2 weeks or 3... I don't know when, but I DO know from my past, that it WILL go away. I've been dealing with this nonsense for 7 years.

It does come and go. Yours will go to and you will catch a break. Praying for you. :)
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I encourage you to see your counselor ASAP, like tomorrow. Or perhaps better yet, talking with a close friend or family member about the possibility of voluntarily checking into a mental health treatment facility. You'll probably stay for 4-5 days while they help you address what's going on with you right now. It's not an "insane asylum," but rather a place where you can receive the care you need to address the challenges you're facing right now. I wish you all the best!
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I am interested in knowing if you have had Botox. Although not widely known Botox causes the exact feeling you describe.
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nope never had botox.
I guess I should mention that I am 21
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RT, perhaps you should start with a visit to your regular doctor (general practitioner). I would do it today if possible. Otherwise, my earlier suggestion is a good way to go. I hope you feel better soon!
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Hi LRon, I've had the exact same symptoms under severe anxiety snd it's called depersonalisation. Trust it will pass and you're not going insane although the out of body feeling isn't pleasant but it will pass. The anxiety plays big mind tricks on us and makes our feers seem so real but I know from my own experience for the past 8 years that anxiety is just a lot of crap and we need to just ride through it until the feeling passes.
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Sorry meant to address the message above to RT
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thanks for your input. But idk if I will ever pass this feeling. I had this for 8 straight months and it feels like its only getting worse no matter how hard I try to combat it. I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing is helping
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RT, anxiety can seem overwhelming. It can make you feel like you'll never get better. But it's actually very treatable, either by meds, therapy, or a combination of the two. But you need to plug into that help. You say you don't know what to do. Make a phone call first thing Monday to your doctor, therapist, or nearest mental health care facility. There's a list on the Illinois Department of Human Services website. If you don't think you can wait that long, call before Monday. You can and will get better!
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I feel this same way and it's so frustrating, idk what's happening this time and I feel so lost and like I'm losing it and belong in a hospital just like you. Looking for any sort of hope, I've somewhat convinced my self I have schizophrenia but I've struggled with bouts of depersonalization before, but this time it's so much worse.
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It makes it so hard just to function normally and I just lay awake at night because I'm scared to close my eyes with all these racing thoughts about everything and how I feel like I've really lost it this time.
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I have been there man and for months on end too. It's scary as hell I agree but it does pass. It helped me when I put myself in a routine. I made myself eat as I had no appetite during the worse of it and I would read and do crosswords. What also helped is I would think of things I enjoyed and made me feel safe and secure. I would be in constant contact with my family and made sure I was in contact with my therapist and psychiatrist when needed. Also, and I'm speaking for myself, the benzos like Xanax only made it worse for me. What helped me was having my ssri adjusted to a different dose. Paxil is an example  in case you aren't taking any.
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Well looking back at it now I have let this stuff bother me non stop for 8months. Now I look back at all the times in the past and ask myself how did I over come it. I had certain strategies to get rid of it. They always worked but took time. I'm just dumbfounded on how I let myself get so bad this time. Had I done these mind things from the beginning I wouldn't be so bad as I am now. But now it's too late to correct it. I feel as though the damage has be done and now I have to just deal with this stuff forever.

Too you since I don't know how long this stuff has lasted with you id would give you this advice.
If you havent already look up dp/dr on youtube because there are tons of ppl who have made youtube videos on how the dealt with this stuff. It really helped me in the way past. Also look up depersonalization mind things for strategies on how to trick your mind out of it. Anyways good luck and have a nice day.
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Hi All,
Recently been feeling this way again and stumbled back and found this post of mine from years ago.
I will say from beginning of 2016 to half of 2017 I starter to and felt great!

But, recently the past months I have steadily been getting worse and been feeling like I'm going insane or brain dead again or that my mind is dissipating! Everyday feels so foggy in my head. Headaches come and go all over my head, cognitively I'm really not there. I feel like I stare of into space a lot, people ask me something and I don't respond. I spend days doing nothing because I'm so out of it. Haven't worked out like I once regularly did for about almost 2 months. Don't work because I don't feel like id be able to. I feel like im going into a vegative state.

A side from that, I have had tests done. So far, perfect blood pressure, blood tests are all good, holter monitor came back normal, ekg fine, sleep study also normal.
Im still taking 75mg of Effexor daily.

I don't have a neurologist or psychairisit so I don't know what the next step for me is?  
This post is very old, you'll probably get more answers if you make a new post.  To me, from this thread, it sounds like you have an episodic problem that comes and goes.  This is common.  It also sounds like the Effexor was probably helping and may have pooped out.  How are you getting it if you don't have a psychiatrist?  Through your regular doc?  You do know they don't specialize in this stuff, right?  That they can't diagnose you?  Only a psychologist or psychiatrist can do that, assuming there isn't something physiological going on, and apparently if there is nobody has been able to find it.  I'd advise seeing a psychiatrist who knows how to properly taper you off Effexor if that's what you need to do, or see a psychologist if you want to try therapy, but the fact this comes and goes could either indicate an episodic mental illness, which is common, or that there's something else going on.
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