Im sick of it all

[Omusicgame]

Im so sick of being awake to this world sometimes.  I just think everybody treats everybody like crap and nowadays its just so hard to talk to somebody who is just laid back and cool.  I just don't get it!!!  It seems like the world changed in a big way since I was younger, and I'll never get used to it.  I feel like we live in an age where women have the upper hand.  It's not fair at all!!  All the stuff that's popular is just pushed to be popular, no real talent out there, nothing.  I mean, am I the only one who sees this?  My wife says just ignore it, but Im the kind of guy who just can't.  The best parts of my days are going to sleep.  Waking up it just feels like full on Depression, where I just don't want to even open my eyes. Yes Sleep is good!  But I push so hard, Im like a warrior, and sometimes I even like a little pain.  I just don't know though.  It just doesn't seem worth it sometimes.  Isn't life supposed to be more of a gift rather than a curse??  These ****** drones on society, need to wake the **** up.  This world is a sick ******* place, well at least now I know that.  Ya see, I shattered my pelvis and my elbow about 12 years ago from an accident.  I fell 7 stories.  People thought it was a suicide, but I really don't remember honestly.  But, my best friend and my other friends don't look at me the same anymore. THey look down on me, like Im a cripple. And treat me like ****.  **** them!!! Im not a cripple!! I hate that word.  I can walk just fine.  It just hurts you know, the name calling.  Why does it feel like friends have turned on me?  IM so bewildered by how life has turned out.  Im stuck at my wifes parents house, until we get a house.  I feel like her parents hate me too.  I just cant stand marriage sometimes.  I just ******* Hate being Grown UP!!  I will honestly tell you that.  I hate hate hate Loathe being grown up.  Its nothing but a pain in the ***, and youre loved when you're a kid, but when you grow up they kick you to the curb.  That's the damn truth, and the only thing that keeps me goin is my kid. That's it.  Thank you.

[nursegirl6572]

I'm sure many (if not most) people feel the way you do, or have anyway, at some point.

To be honest, it sounds like you could be dealing with some depression.  I'm not saying that that is the reason for the crappy things in the world, but it COULD be painting everything with a darker filter, you know?  

Who could blame you for being angry and frustrated...you feel let down by people very close to you, and you probably feel inadequate, as you don't have your own house yet, etc.  That's a NORMAL reaction, and a normal way to feel.  The GOOD news is, that your situation can be only temporary!  YOU get out of life what YOU put in it.  Sounds like a cheesy cliche doesn't it?  Well, maybe so, but it's so true!  You sound like a very smart, articulate guy...and I would guess a very creative one too!  You just need to find a way to harness the good stuff and make it into something great..even if ONLY you can appreciate it!

What's your relationship like with your wife?  Is she supportive?  Does she know how you feel?  Have you ever tried confiding in her?  How about a professional?  Have you ever been assessed for possible depression?  You posted this in the anxiety forum, so does that mean you're feeling anxious a lot?

Just know that you're not alone, and you've landed on a great site, with wonderful supportive people.  We'll help you do what needs to be done to try and find some hope and optimism in life....the silver lining if you will.  Because, while I agree with you 100% that there's a lot of garbage in this world, there's SO much that's amazing, and awesome and good about it too.  Sometimes it takes a little effort to look for it, and concentrate on that, versus the bad stuff.

Looking forward to your reply!  Hang in there!

[ICanSpellThornwell]

I'm sorry that you've been through so much pain and confusion. It sounds like you've been through a lot and I certainly don't want to detract from the situations you've encountered. There is a quote from Saint Augustine, and I'm not sure if you're religious, even a bit, but he has famously said, "You [God] have made us with eternity in our hearts and we are restless until we find our rest in You". I'm not sure what you're looking for but God may just have an answer for the pain and suffering that you've been through. Let me know if you wanna talk. Hang in there, God bless.

-ICanSpellThorwell-