Need to Vent

[suzi-q]

It has been a long time since I have been around...sorry about that.....but I need some support AGAIN...I am a teacher and off from school for summer vacation.  Summer is a horrible time for me and I don't know why.  I just feel so depressed and so filled with anxiety.  I just want to SCREAM...this is all the time and it drives me nuts...every year I try harder and harder...maybe that is why I feel so crummy..I focus too much.  I have a beautiful 4 year old daughter who I feel that I don't do enough with or for because I feel so stuck with my anxiety.....which then makes it worse.  I am just so darn aggrevated with myself....I don't know what to do.

[suzi-q]

Thank you both, for your responses!!  Yes, keeping busy is key, but sometimes it is so hard to get moving...I KNOW that you both KNOW what I am feeling.  Thank you also for the vote of confidence.  It truly makes me feel good!

[Paxiled]

Let's see, you teach, you're a mother -- in other words, you're helping those who need it most.  And you're aggravated with yourself?  I'm inclined to feel admiration for you.

[silverberg]

It's that time off! alot of time to think! I do not work now and it has been hard as I am anything but a couch potato (I really wish I was) but I keep myself busy every day  I do at least 1-3 things a day (work) clean house, pass water to the homeless, volunteer. I have the cleanest house!! LOL.

as for your daughter, you just being there is ENOUGH!! that energy you are using to "beat yourself up" you turn it around right now!! and tell yourself you are not a good mother a GREAT MOTHER!!! and always believe that!

If I start to get down on self, I turn on the news (cnn) puts me right back into reality! keep posting and remember alot of support here and allot you can share to others here!

[suzi-q]

Just need to know that I am not alone in this.......