OCD/Anxiety/HIV

[enlight111]

Hi,

I posted in the HIV forum and after a sleepless night I figured I might have posted in the wrong forum. this was my original post in the Hiv Prevention Community :

"I went on a date to a guys place (i m a guy as well) and During our date an uninvited guest appeared at his door and it turned out to be his "friend" who was just talking about how he had sex at a "cruising spot" , he stayed for an hour or so and as he left he shook my hand. My date later told me he is HIV+. I had cuticle breaks around my fingernails. and no other wound on my hand (that I am aware of). The guy obviously had sex before coming there (don t know how long before) ; what if he didn't wash his hands after sex and there was semen residue on his hand? Am I somehow at risk ? through indirect contact shortly after the handshake? (touching face, rubbing my eyes, smoking so touching lips with my fingers, phone etc.)

Am I overreacting this? Is there any chance this could lead to anything? Do I need to test and am I still HIV- (because I know I am)?

I m even afraid to touch the things i touched after the handshake, to be honest it was the first time I knowingly got to meet a HIV+ person ( I realize I sound like an ignorant) I m just confused. No offence. "

I must have washed my hands 8-10 times after that and I still felt in danger. I cannot tell if I was in real danger or if it s in my head because that HIV+ guy is real and so was the situation....I suffered from horrible depression before and I feel like I m following my old patterns. What do you think? should I still be concerned about HIV or si this anxiety?

[anxiety860]

You had no risk at all. And I mean no risk.

This is all your anxiety.

Shaking hands is a zero risk. If it was a risk we'd all have HIV.

Magic Johnson continued to play basketball a contact sport after he was diagnosed.  

When I had a fear of HIV I would watch the nba and watch him broadcast certain games and the people sitting next to him and no issue at all by touching him and shaking his hand.

Anyways, don't lose anymore sleep over this because this is all anxiety. You had no risk.

[enlight111]

Thank you for your reply. Did you take everything into consideration to determine the no risk?

It's just that with my OCD i always assume the other person has HIV and is "dangerous". And this time I was not just assuming but it was a real situation and right in front of me.I am panicking....