Needs some help

[joe2003]

ppl ever since I made a mistake of having protected sex with this one escort and the last minnute the side if the condom (not the top part) had a little tear  and I stopped it like a second or two after I noticed the rip....i have been driving my self crazy to the brink that I cant think anymore..I throw up..I start shivering and I cant eat or sleep..I have talked to PPL who know about HIV they are like I shouldnt worry about anything.. I had Minnimal to absolutley no risk at all... but the way I am I worry alot and the minnute I get pain or a headache im like oh god could it be..but they tell me no its anxiety and im afraid nothing else will kill me but my anxiety will.... help plzzz

[joe2003]

Thanks nurse for ur advice.. ya ill get tested just for my own peace of mind even though I know and ppl tell me Im prefectly fine i just need to get my mental imaginination in check..  because thats whts cuasing me to have reall bad anxiety and im getting sick cuz of it...and ill stay off the internet foe a lil while cuz sometimes it dosnt help at all..

Thank you all

[nursegirl6572]

Well, with your elaboration of the events...I'm even MORE confident you have NOTHING to worry about than I was before.  Reason being...protected sex means just that..."protected".  Usually when condoms fail to put one at risk...they fail completely (and you'd know it, trust me).  What is also very pertinent is that the tear of the condom was not at the head.  That is the only area that MIGHT have put you at SLIGHTLY higher risk...and even if that would have been the case...the increased risk would have been pretty much unmeasurable.

You're perfectly fine.  If you haven't had a test recently and are sexually active...this would be perfect time to do so (do it at 3 months post this incident that worries you)....and I only suggest that for anxiety relief and the fact that everyone should be tested at some point, if they are sexually active....not b/c what you describe warrants it.

Take Care.

[joe2003]

This happened 21st of june.... ya it just had a small tear on the side where its all skin (not the head)... the escort her self was married and had children.. she told me this her self..but Ive told mant ppl  especially medical experts and some ppl who know alot about std's and hiv .. they say I should move on theres nothing for me to worry about and I am 99.99% clean ... I didnt kiss her ..oral was protected..and just last second the side of the condom had a small tear because she was dry (srry ladies for the detail).. but i am one of those ppl who are very scared of any disease especially cancer and hiv..Ive always tried to keep my self healthy and clean.. man Im never ever going to make this mistake again... but these symptoms that I been having all associate with ARS but every one and their mothers have been telling me is anxiety..there is nothin wrong with..and ill get even more sick (when theres actually nothing wrong with me)...I get some abdominal pain .. i feel weak @ times ..my urine is very yellow..and my shoulders hurt...

[Charlotterose]

how long ago did thias happen?

[nursegirl6572]

It's normal for you to be anxious.  I totally agree that you've had either a VERY VERY VERY minute risk, or none at all.  HIV is NOT an easy virus to transmit.  You MUST keep that in mind.

How long ago did this happen?  A test at 3 months post "exposure" (in quotes, b/c I wouldn't necessarily call your situation an actual exposure) will be conclusive.

If possible....can you contact the escort and go with her to have HER tested?  If so...your fears will be over.

Hang in there...seek some professional help with this anxiety while you are waiting to be tested.  Honestly....please try to relax.  I'd be willing to bet you have NOTHING to worry about.