My whole life feels like just a big dream?

[Headphoneslove]

I don't know why but as far as I can remember I never felt alive...I never felt really happy or sad about anything
in situations I know I am supposed to feel like and I just act like it...I am very calm and carefree because nothing feels real...it was quite normal for me so I never actually looked into it..the first time I thought of it as a problem was when my father died when I was 14 everyone else was acting crazy crying or yelling...but it didn't feel real to me..even now that 6 years have passed I still don't feel like its real...and this year when I won a championship everyone was very happy for me but again didn't feel real to me I was acting happy because I knew that was what I was supposed to feel..everything seems fake and far aways like I am watching my self living from the outside
I am repeating my self here..but thats how it is nothing feels real the good the bad even now as I am typing this I feel like I am watching my self from somewhere and no actually doing it also I am lazy and I don't really care about anything...now I never had an agreesive behaviour or anger problems and I also was never afraid of going out with people or new things...even when I was 18 and had a motorbike accident everything seemed fake and away the pain,the people worrying about me even as I saw the car coming and I knew I was about to crush I didn't feel any fear for even a second..I have never actually been afraid...I told my girlfriend about this on a night that we were staying awake and talking and she said that this explained my whole personality and my carefree nature...and that I should go to psycologist...what do you think it could be?is it actually so bad that I need help?even if it is a mental dissorder it can't be serious because it never caused me any problems with the people around me...

[AnxiousNoMore]

Maybe take her advice if you feel that it is important to get answers, because we can't diagnose you from here. On the other hand, there are some vocations in life that can use people with your calm detached attitude (like trauma workers for example) so perhaps you might explore them with that in mind.