Wondering if any fellow panic attack sufferers have had this issue:
A little background just so you know where I'm coming from...I have had anxiety/depression my entire life. I don't think there has ever been a day where I didn't have a nervous stomach or jitters. In the past 3 years, I have had near-constant panic attacks and off-and-on depression.
So...all of a sudden now I've been feeling pretty peaceful, as in I haven't had any panic attacks in weeks now. A lot of stressors have been removed. We were having very severe financial issues for the last 2 years almost, and now all of a sudden most of that is taken care of and I'm not worrying about money as constantly. Also, I feel almost like some of the things I worried about before are just not bothering me anymore. So...the problem is now that I don't have those constant thoughts running through my head; I'm not constantly budgeting money or thinking about what bills I need to pay, what time my husband will be home, who I'll call if there is an emergency (one of our other issues was that we had only 1 car that my husband had all day at work, and we had no long distance service on our phone so I couldn't call anyone I knew if there was an emergency--that is all taken care of now too), etc.; I feel really weirded out by this "silence" in my head. Does that make any sense?
I am still having anxiety, but instead of it being over money and things like that, it's more focused on my health (mainly focusing on my heart rate and BP because lately when I go to the doctor's office, it has been high, but then when I check it at home on my cuff monitor it's fine). And I don't know if it's an unhealthy health obsession, since I have been focusing on feeling better: losing weight, exercising more, taking better care of myself. I am still having stomach problems/pains which I think are from anxiety, and also other health issues that are anxiety-related as well (I think).
The major issue is that this silence is really bugging me. Could it be that my body is so used to stress and panic and the constant thoughts that I'm just not responding well to the new calm?
I hope this all makes sense and that I don't sound too crazy. I'm not really sure how to word all of this, so I hope someone understands what I'm saying here! Also, I have noticed that I feel very "emotion-less" lately, if that is a word. I haven't been sad, tearful, angry, happy, etc. Just feel very blank and like "nothing" but not suicidal or anything like that...just don't really feel anything at all.