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PLEASE HELP

This is very embarssing, but I have an addiction question. I have posted on here several times for my addiction to tramadol, which by God's grace I was delivered from.  OVER 130 DAYS CLEAN!!! Somehow, l have let another sin creep into my life, and I am ashamed and embarresed beyond beleif. However, I know that from the past people here would understand and be compassionant. Because of maritial issues, I let the sin of porn creep into my life. As of recently I looked at it several times over the last 2 weeks, daily in fact. After being convicted by God, I decided it was time to stop. Now ever since then, I have felt a lot of the symptoms I did when I first quit the tramadol. Mainly, the anxiety. My question is, is this from being addicted to porn? Did it affect my brain in the same way?  Please any insights will help. Will this go away soon? I am afraid my anti depresent quit..
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370181 tn?1595629445
Hi chad
Congratulations on your 130 days clean! That's an incredible acheivement and you should be very proud of yourself. That is a nasty drug to kick.

I don't like porn. In fact, I hate it. But I don't for one single minute think it's a "sin" to look at. You've said that you're having some maritial issues. I'm going to assume that possibly things in the bedroom are a bit chilly right now. For a grown man to relieve his frustrations by looking at porn is incredibly normal and healthy. (As long as it's not kiddy porn!) You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about. I think every man with access to a computer looks at porn. I'm positive MY husband does. I believe that watching porn is a far better choice than having an affair.
You say you've been "convicted" by God because you watched some porn. I am not a religious person, so that's an area I don't even want to get into.........BUT, I think IF I was religious, I'd say that God would rather have you watching porn than having an affair which I believe IS a sin in the 10 Commandments.
I don't think you are "addicted" to porn, even if you look at it every day. I think people that are addicted to porn have a problem that is uncontrolable.
Perhaps some of the symptoms you're experiencing are from guilt. That's my guess. Simple guilt..........since you obviously were not a regular porn watcher before the maritial issues. The guilt causes stress, the stress turns to anxiety, you start beating yourself up and look where it got you! The porn did NOT affect your brain like the Tramadol did. I don't know where you came up with that idea, but it's just not true.
You ask if "it" will go away soon. As soon as YOU let go of the idea that porn is a sin. As soon as you accept that watching or looking at porn is a natural to men as watching football or car races.
If you feel your antidepressant is no longer working, see the doctor who prescribed it for you and discuss upping your dosage.
I would also strongly urge you to get into therapy and realize just how "healthy" you are.
Maybe marriage counseling is in your future as well, but for now, you need to get YOUR head screwed on straight!
You are soooo normal........
Peace
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