I used pot that was given to me last night. I have used this before, with some simular experiece, although NOT as bad as this, and had thought it was something that might be a spiritual type healing, that I might just need to work through, SORRY for those of you that might think this sounds too WHOO WHOO.
But, to give you some history...
I have a degenerative neuromuscular auto immune disease, that I have had for over 20 years and I have been on numerous meds and done many types of western, eastern, tradtional and non tradtional treatments for my disease..I am now doing a combination of medications, although for the most part they are traditonal western meds. This in fact, was a medical grade marajuana. It was supposed to be a "good one" I do not know what that means, I have never got this type before, but I was getting desprete to treat some symptoms that nothing else was working for, I did not get this Rx from my primary care, i now wish I had, I had to get it from out of state..
but, why I am writing...I had a very bad experience last night,
the experience went from bad to worse last night, I ended up going into a full blown siezure...I was able to realize what was happening, luckily and was able to use my lifeline, which I do have, and they got the paramedics here and they reseitated me, I also felt like I was going to die, but then, I actually did, talk about paranoia!! All those other times, I felt like I was going to die??? I only did this pot three other times, one to two hits, in my pipe, I can not inhale well, so I do not do more than that..usually the effects only last for a few hours..but the last time, they were a little worse and I was told I was going through a spiritual crisis and I was having an energetic opening and just needed to work through it, I supposedly had a koodalini opening the few weeks previuosly and still had a block that was causing me to have headaches and my disease to flare...so, being proabably too stupid to even tell you hrer, I thought, really STUPID me, I would just work it totally through and "get all better" so I went and took one "small" hit. I set myself up so that I would be ok, if I would need help though, remembering the fear of death, and at least that was what saved me.
Another interesting thing about questionable hospitals...
they sent me home in 7hours, after telling me I had a seizure with a Rx for ativan and telling me to see a neurologist. They actually let me WALK out without assistance...I barely made it home before I had another one...
I am ok because I know how to get through them, but I am not so sure that the hospital is such a great one..
they did do a tox screen on me and it can out clean. I have never done any heavy drugs, I do not drink or smoke ciggerettes, I only eat organic foods, I can not be around any perfumes or dies or chemicals, so this is all pretty scary and strange for me...
Now, if there is not anyone who thinks I am not too completely crazy and they think they can give me any suggestions? By the way, I will NOT touch the stuff again! I have learned my lesson!
some other effects were lossing the use of my arms, hands and leggs, they went from paralysis to thrasing, to painful time slowing down, to, loss of conrtol of my movements, I had no control over how they moved it was excrutianing in the pain department, I have never felt that type of pain in my life....and I have been in chronic pain for 20 years, with this degenerative muscle and nerve disease....*sigh* but this was beyond anything I have ever had before... I actually felt like I could see time going backwards...this was the strange part, I SAW mayself die and come back...I saw the machine flat line. now THAT was very scarey! but I keep seeing it happen until I was able to get it to stop...It all sounds so much like an awful drug overdose or some type of loosing my mind...
I hope I have not made a mistake by putting all this out here, I have not had anything THIS dramatic before..even though I mentioned simular things...this is so much over the top...
I better go, I am sure I have given you enough to go on here....and as you can probably tell, I am not completely out of the woods on the altered mind crap....I seem to be running over a "tad" :(
thank you for reading this....I am starting to feel my hands going numb again...but this time it is probably only from the extra use, and that is my normal reaction from my disease...just a little extra from all the trauma of last night...
I am just so grateful to have found this site...maybe I can get some answers....?
J.