Will Anxiety ever go away???

[lilb09]

I started having anxiety attacks this year... around march i think. they went away and came back around the beginning of august. I went to therapy twice, but omg. it's so expensive! I'm 20, and living on my own now in another state far away from my hometown, so I can't afford it right now. After the last two sessions i went to, my anxiety attacks stopped. Well, then last night I had a slight headache.. and it just felt like my head was very very full. It didn't hurt like enough where i said OW. But my stupid cousin was telling me this story of this guys head hurting, and he died of a brain anurism. That freaked me out. I started getting on a normal sleep schedule, which I think helped, well now I'm kinda on a late night kick. I stayed up late lastnight, and right when I started eating a sandwich at midnight BAM it hit me. I started having one, and actually threw up my sandwich and started shaking I felt so wierd, like I wasn't myself. I hate that instense panic feeling like I wanted to run away. I'm feeling better today, but i was wondering if anybody ever has relationship issues because of your anxiety issues. My boyfriend I live with just can't understand why I am having these, and wouldn't even go in the bathroom and help me out while I was puking my brains out and wouldn't help me calm down. he says he almost can't handle all these problems... I feel like he doesn't want me because he thinks he got a faulty girlfriend. lol. But anyways, give me some advice. :)
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[JGF25]

I'm going to add my two cents in here.  My husband does not understand OCD/anxiety/depression at all.  He is the complete opposite of me.  He worries about nothing.  After 22 years of marriage, I just tell him "I'll be a little crazy for a while but you know I'll get better, now sit down and hold my hand."  And he will.  He doesn't have to understand it, he just has to be supportive.  Just tell your boyfriend you need a little patience right now while you figure this out.  

[cj29]

I am sorry that you are going through this right now.  In my experience, it can be confusing, scary and overwhelming when we first start to go through this.  Anxiety and panic definitely has its peaks and valleys and can be very frustrating.  Initially, my wife was just as scared and confused as I was but that is a natural reaction to something we do not understand in my opinion.  Therapy is expensive, but that was the route that helped me the most, however, have you looked into group therapy?  It is usually much cheaper and I actually prefer it because there are people that are going through what you are experiencing.  It also added a sense of 'validity' to what I was feeling and enabled me to look at the big picture and realize that many people go through this.Have you talked to your doctor about medication?  I have had good results with a class of meds known as SSRIs and the generic forms are pretty inexpensive.  

Even though you don't see it now, I believe this whole experience will actually make you a more well rounded person and you will be better off for it (I know that is the last thing you probably will believe right now and if anyone would have told me that when I first started experiencing anxiety, I would have thought they did not know what they were talking about).  You will have setbacks, but that is true with any challenge we face...please feel free to ask as many questions as you like!

[mammo]

You really need to see your doctor about the headaches and vomiting.  It sounds like a panic attack followed this but I'm not sure the headache and vomiting would be part of it....but brought on by it.  If your boyfriend is not supportive....you really need to think about moving on.  Love perseveres through anything and this is a glimpse of what life would be with this guy in the future.  If he is too weak to help you thru this difficult time...he's not much of a catch.  He actions are a big red flag of things to come and his character.  You deserve more than this from a partner. Best wishes.