Someone... Opinion/Relate?? I'm new...

[Anxious_Manna]

Well, my event that leading up to me having anxiety I should probably explain 1st.  

Back in Febuary of 2007 this year I was dating a guy Ryan and he was a big pot head ... and so I had gotten him weed once through a friend of mine and we smoked up nothing really happend I just laughed alot and that was it.  Then, In Febuary I think it was on his 2oTH bday I was the house that he was living at which was his Grandma's and... his buddies all ended up comming over and they were like chyea wanna smoke... and not thinking I was like ok helll yeah why not.. Because I wanted to impress his friends.. At the time I remember feeling pretty nervous because Joe a friend of his said there was coke in the weed.. So, anyways we went in the back room and we all shared two bowl packs and then when they were cashed I remember feeling a SPLURGE of energy and jogging out of the room and I was like you guys want to go jogging? Then, I remember taking pictures and I wasn't taking pictures of anything, and I fell over and when I got up.. everything felt unreal and everything seemed really clear and ... I was like woah what the hell.. and so ... I told everyone things were 3D because thats what it seemed like as if they were closer then they were... and or further away it went back and forth so then... I started freaking out and everything seemed so fake... like almost I was dead my Boyfriend  at the time put his arms around me and I remember me saying I can't feel them somethings wrong call 911 and they all didn't know what to do so they started running around worrying me more so I grabbed Ty's phone and went outside into the snow with no shoes and no soxs on and... I couldn't feel anything I was on the phone with 911 and they said they were sending an ambulence ... so they did , and then I remember them taking me away and they gave me a IV and took my blood turns out the only thing in my system was Cannibus... which is marijuana.. and nothing else....

Ever sense that night I have been feeling anxious, and paranoid... like, but it just comes out of no where so I wasn't sure if it's PTSD... or... Panic Disorder.. I'm so confused... I just want the worrying and freaking out to go away when I have an anxiety attack it's like I"ll go back to that night except I'll sweat in my palms and then my mouth goes numb and throaht and then... I normally just feel like everything around me.. is fake and I'm dying.... and it eventually wares off normally after I write... I noticed when I drink alcohol it is worse.. I don't know what I have.... though as far as diagnosis and I don't know if caffine and smoking ciggs is worsening my symptoms... I just need to get help so I can get rid of this...

Does anyone have anxiety or PTSD or something because of drug use?  I don't get it.. && I'm confused.. and I feel alone and this is really depressing I used to be so happy && now I"m on edge someone please reply... I'd really appreciate it to hear from as many people as possible...

Oh and if I have a really really bad anxiety attack Everything will seem really clear and perception of space is off... ??? hmm.. I'm so confused on why this is happening...

And if I avoid an anxiety attack from gettting out of hand I normally get a really bad headache && worry about if it's going to come...

Thanks for your time everyone,
-Anxious_Manna

[trouble10]

You're symptoms are classic.  We all try to avoid situations where we have had panic attacks. That's why so many of us are trapped in our houses, because if you have this long enough you'll have a panic attack just about everywhere. Definately see a therapist. She'll give you directions on how to handle this. Remember. You feel like you're dying, you're convinced you're dying, but panic attacks won't kill you unless you already have a bad heart. Lots of love and luck!!!

[savygaby]

I REALLY DONT THINK YOUR ANXIETY IS FROM SMOKING POT A COUPLE OF TIMES, YOU COULD BE SO OBSESSED WITH THERTHOUGHT THAT THIS EXPIRENCE CAUSED SOMETHING BAD TO HAPPEN TO YOU THAT YOU ARE CAUSING THE ANXIETY.SOMETIMES YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER WHAT HAPPENS, I WOULD RECOMMEND TRYING TO TALK TO A THERAPIST ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON AND SEE IF THAT HELPS, CAFFEINE AND SUGARS MAKE ANXIETY WORSE YOU ARE ALSO TO YOUNG TO BE DRINKING AND SMOKING SO MAYBE YOU SHOULD NOT BE DOING THAT BECAUSE THAT WILL MAKE ANXIETY WORSE , IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE GOIGN TO HAVE A ANXIETY ATTACK TAKE A DEEP BREAth for 4 seconds hold it for 4 seconds let it out for  4 seconds hold for 4 seconds do this 4 times it should help you feel better. eating proteins veg, fruits caan also help and take a long walk