Also, do you think I would be better benefitted by taking .5 3x a day than .25 4-5 times a day? I know xanax has a short half life, but I want to make sure I am getting the best out of it.
Namaste,
First of all, take your medication as presribed by your physician. Making adjustments on your own can be detrimental to your overall recovery.
Perhaps I'm oversimpilifying this but, it appears as if you're over-thinking the whole matter, especially the trip to you in-laws.
Living each day in fear is not a type of life that I enjoy(I suffer from bipolar disorder, PTSD, panic attacks, SAD and SAD), so I'm not a newcomer to "bad" days. The cest you can do is accept what is nappening at the moment and understand that it will pass.
You're not going to die from a panic attack, even though you may think sometimes that you are.
As for your other symptoms, I have experienced a wide range of physical symptoms during and after a major panic attack, but through alternative methods (i.e. meditation, yoga, etc.) you can learn to deal with them without serious distress.
I don't know if you also participate in counseling, but that is also an excellent adjunt to medications. You need to take control of your life with the assiatnce of your support network.
Finally, if your after attack symptoms are especially troublesome, you should discuss them with your healthcare provider. He/she may be able to make an adjustment on your medication, change your medication and offer additional treatments and options.
Michael