Weird Horrible Feeling

[Entheogenicgirl]

Hello everyone! I'm just going to start by saying that when I was around 7 to 14, whenever I got a fever, I would wake up and have this feeling of something doubling and growing. It felt like a mass of something (like energy) coming over me and it would just keep on getting bigger and doubling in size. I can't actually see it but I feel it. It would go away in 20 minutes because I found if I went outside and breathed deeply it would go away.

So, last week I was sick with some nasty bug or something. Earache in both ears, sore throat and just feeling like total crap. When I was at my peak of the sickness, I woke up with the feeling I had when I was younger. Okay, you know when I said it was doubling? Well, when I was around 11 I could see in my head, 2, 4, 8, 16, 32, 64 and it would get to 2000. Well, the other night it only got to like 10 but still, it feels way worse than a normal panic attack and I dont know if it is. It feels like something is like evil or something lol. Or it feels psycho. It really scares me and I want to know if anyone else has experienced this.

I tried to explain this as best as I can, it is the hardest feeling to describe.
Thanks.

Jenna

[trdofbeingtrd]

If you are still visiting the site, feel free to message me and I can go over tips and techniques that have helped me with anxiety and or panic.

[Entheogenicgirl]

Yes, I see a counselor and she helps a lot, this panic is different from other panic attacks. I dont get all the symptoms like shaking, tingling, heaviness, etc. I just get this feeling in side that feels like its swallowing me up. My boyfriend and his brother said they got the same feeling when they were younger. But it was a reoccuring dream. It feels like a mass of negative energy trying to take over me.

[cj29]

Anxiety can definitely take many forms in my opinion.  Have you ever sought the help of a counselor?  Panic can really throw us for a loop if we do not deal with it in my experience.