disturbing stuff

[DJ873]

read a post that triggered my own issues and am going to try writing it out rather than go where i normally would. OK, I have a choice, to look backward forward or straight ahead. To live in the past in my mind is to create suffering for myself and others. I can use the tools i have learned to redirect my mind. I can take deep belly breathes to calm my heart rate, I can focus on my fingers as i type and ground in the now. I can let myself feel what those thoughts brought out and just allow things to be as they are. This breath is my gift, each new moment is fresh and new and doesn't have to be a carryover from a past moment. I am powerful and I am loving, I am powerful and I am loved, I am powerful and I love it!!!! I choose to set my eyes forward and remember thoughts and memories are of the mind and I don't have to give them front and center, I can sit on the side of the river and see all my thoughts as the water running by without becoming them. I am reminding myself that thoughts are like the river or clouds, to see and acknowledge, but not become. Whew. I also recognize that I am vulnerable to others words that hit to close to home and need to keep that in mind as I read others posts in an attempt to help.

[DJ873]

thank you, i do try to focus on the present and some on the future but sometimes get sucked in to the stream of thought that messes me up. I will practice that today!!!

[stryker0014]

try looking through the future not the past i looked into my past and i suffered greatly and while suffering i hurt somone that truly loved me so keep looking to the future its going to be bright and sunny

[DJ873]

went and watched the little ones play in our itty bit of snow, its so nice outside right now, that helped to give that my attention instead of my thoughts

[Alisonj29]

Hugs. Sometimes reading posts can trigger things. I am sorry that you experienced that but am very happy to read that you are able to think clearly and calmly like you are. You are doing so well!