Im not looking for a drug to release me from this that will only mask it i know i tried them before and had awful results. I am going to seek help so i can get past this, also i think i need to work out to ease some of my body tension. People tell me im crazy but you know im worried about my health and pending doom who isnt. i just think about it 99% of the day. This site just talking about it on here is already starting to take some worry away and also reading others post. knowing we all are kinda connected trying to find away out of this nightmare
As Schpier said, look for a psychotherapist who can help you to try and get to the root of your constant anxiety that your body is about to fail on you.
You could also start a log, noting when you get anxious and what brought it on.
To mitigate the worst symptoms, there are lots of drugs that 'take the edge off', like benzodiazepines, certain anti-psychotics also some anti-depressants, though they each come with side-effects, if only because those drugs not only suppress your anxiety/fear/nervousness but also every other emotion you have.
I appreciate that. Ive reached out to my friends and family they just call me a hyprochandriac and quit they dont understand the constant mental and even physical pain this is causing me. The worst thing is everything causes a panic attack now like im worried about the stress to so when i get mad or stressed it goes over the top. i catch myself wanting to go to the er all the time and recently i get to the parking lot and stop myself. like every night i go, then when im alone with my son i get nervous something is gonna happen to me
I'm sure you must feel very scared and unable to function. Your reaching out for help is courageous!
Please look at getting help from a trustworthy psychotherapist as a first step - if your primary doc has not been helpful.
Be assured that multiple CT scans will NOT cause cancer!
Reach out to family and friends for support too and distract yourself from the anxiety by caring for your son.